Can I say Family....????

hE lOvEs mE.... :)

~~* Ron's P.O.V *~~

As Jay pushed me I just walked out of the hospital towards my house. I can't blame him. He have all right to hate me. I ran to my room and cry hard. Thank God my parents weren't home. I went to the kitchen and brought a knife. I wanted to cut. People says that cutting yourself helps in releasing stress. But I am kindda nervous in hurting myself.

So I grabbed a bottle of beer. I ran to my room and locked the door. I drank the bottle of beer and fuzziness surrounded me. I grabbed the knife and slide it along my wrist 5 times- S O R R Y-. It hurted but felt good. First time I cutted for the one I love yeah quiet romantic. Right?? But he don't loves me back. I love you Jay and I can do anything for you. Thinking this I slept on the floor.

I woke up few hours later with a severe headache. I quickly got to the bathroom cleaned my cuts and had a shower. I came out and saw it was about 6 in the eve. So I thought to go to the park. I quickly changed and ran downstair to meet Emily. I was happy to know that Jay was well now. I made my way to the park and heard someone crying on the swing. I sat next to him. It was this dark that we both were unable to see each other. ''Why are you crying??'' I asked, my voice sounding differently due to the alcohol. ''N-nothing I-I can'-t sh-are with y-you'' he sniffs. I recognize this voice.

Jay?? I think he didn't recognized me. ''You can tell me because I can't leak your secrets to anyone'' I said. Then there was a long 5 minutes silence. I think he would not tell me. I was about to get up when. '' I used to have a Boyfriend. I knew he was a player but I loved him with all my heart. I made love with him. But it was all fake. I saw him swapping spit with a girl. He cheated on me. I was only a worthless toy for him which he used to win his bet which he for sure won. He never knew what all I have been through. I never told him though so he may not be stressed. My dad used to beat me after he died my uncle took his place which was more severe'' he panted and sniffed ''My elder brother took my innocence he raped me. I was sorry am aneroxic, I cutted But I never told anything to my boyfriend Ron. I still love him with all my heart.'' he broke down crying. Oh God I never knew what all he had been through and I never asked him anything. God just kill me already. I was shocked that he is still suffering.

I stood up and hugged him tightly. '' I am sorry Jay I really am'' I said tears freely falling from my eyes. ''R-Ron'' he said shocked. ''yes its me. Jay it was only bet in start not in the end. As for the whore I only kissed her cuz of my reputation. Trust me'' I said. ''It would be hard to trust you Ron'' Jay said and ran out of the park leaving me there speechless.

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