Hi everyone. So sorry this isn't a real chapter. I really wasn't happy with the chapter I wrote for this week so I'm going to completely change it. I guess it's just a bit of writer's block. I promise next week will be a real chapter. Anyway, I couldn't not upload anything so I got some old diary entries that I wrote from Lexa's point of view that I was supposed to upload and added some stuff so it's up to date. I hope it's a good insight anyway.
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Dear Diary,
There's no point to you. The doctors told me to write in you every single day. Are they crazy? I can't even hold a pen that long because I'm so weak. I don't want to 'divulge' all my secrets in a stupid book. I don't even know the date so I can't write it. Mum told me we're moving away from Sydney and I screamed. I screamed like they do in horror movies and I stared as she paled and tears streamed down her face. I don't know why I screamed. I should be happy to get away from this stupid place. It's just that America is so far away and Carly and my life is so far away from there. Although, I don't have a life anymore. I just sit here being a waste of space. If dad was here, what would he do.... [teardrops on the page]
Dear Diary,
It's been maybe three weeks since I last wrote in you. We're packing so I thought I'd give you an update. I'm so confused and I hate it. I don't even know which way is up anymore. I went to the mental hospital last week but they let me go home because I wasn't that crazy. They said it was grief-induced depression and I just needed time. Well I've had time and it's not going away. I need them to fix me. Isn't that what doctors are supposed to do?
Dear Diary,
I'm really bad at this keeping up-to-date thing with you. Sorry. It's not on my priorities. I have to admit though, it is kind of great to just write down stuff in you. I hate to say the therapists were right but...well they were. Anyway, sorry I never sign off. I don't have time for that shit. We've moved by now. Yes, it has been a very very very long time. This town is weird but small which I like. And I met this boy. Yeah. A boy even though I swore never to interact with the male race again after Jarrod. He's kind of mean but nice at the same time and tall and dreamy and basically physically perfect. Yes he has a six-pack as well! I call him a 'badboy' because he seems to...well...sleep around a lot. But lately we've been spending some time together and I see different sides to him. Yes, he's annoying and mean and moody but a lot of the time he's the sweetest and most thoughtful person ever. He's damaged. Like me. I guess that's why we're drawn to each other. His name is Archie Parker.
BUT! There's always a 'but' with boys; he won't open up to me. I think he's hiding things, secrets about himself but I just don't know what. Strange things about him don't add up. I swear once he had a tattoo but now it's gone. He has such a weird accent, he never tells me things about his past and when I confront him about it he just shuts me down. I don't know what he's hiding but I want to know.
Dear Diary,
It's been awhile again. Archie and I broke up. You never knew we were together but anyway. I thought I should let you know. I'm in Sydney right now. Shit happened. I don't even know what's going on right now. Funny how life goes in a loop.
I'm not going to write in this anymore. I don't see the point. So bye...I guess. We didn't know each other well anyway.
Dear Diary
I'm going to change. I am going to change. I am strong. I am not some insect that other people step all over. I know I said I won't write in here again but I need you to write down some numbers on. I'm going to fix mum. I'm going to fix me.
Therapists:
Liz Owens: 078992739827
Janny Bee: 98579340390
Dr Yun Me pHD: 776663773
Psychiatrist:
Dr Una Porello: 67788909990
Clinical Psychologists:
Jason Treen: 6654467767
Abe Bateman: 6876876888
Lisa Crass: 84094089080
Dr Pam Smithe: 38974843745
Reminder:
- Book hair appointment
THE PHASES
Phase 1: forget abou
Phase 1: EAT – fatten up
Phase 2: Get fit & Healthy and join classes or clubs to make new friends
Phase 3: Get up to date on school study
Phase 4: Cut Archie out of my life
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As you can tell guys I haven't updated in a long time. I'm really sorry but I just haven't had the time lately and to be honest I'm feeling pretty discouraged to write. I think I'll get back on to it and obviously eventually finish the book so I can reveal everything but just not right now...so it's on hold for now. I'm really sorry ;(
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