(...Sort Of..) Love

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Thump, thump, thump, oh my god my head. It feels like someone took a bat and hit me repeatedly. Wow this bed is really warm, and that arm around me is, wait arm? My eyes shot open and next to me was a naked Carter. OH NO, NO, NO, NO! I looked under the blanket slowly only to slam the covers back down. No, no, no, no! I didn't, I couldn't have. Quickly I sat up. Ah bad move. A pain shot through my lower body. Shit we did. Okay don't scream, don't scream.

"Carter get the hell up!" I screeched at the top of my lungs. I think I'm gunna start crying soon.

I heard a thump and it was Carter landing the floor. "Oh shit my head." He moaned. Well if we're moaning then I would be saying oh shit my virginity.

"Carter. We, we.... you know. Look at me and stop complaining about your stupid head we had sex!" I yelled again sitting up bringing the blanket with me.

"Gracie....I'm sorry look I was drunk I don't even remember what happened." He got up and sat on the bed but I pushed him off. He glared for minute.

"Look it might just be a mistake for you and you can say I'm sorry but to me it's different." I told him looking down.

He stood up and sighed. "I really am sorry Gracie."

"Can you please just get out so I can change?" I asked holding in tears. He nodded and left. This is just great. I sighed and fell back into his bed. What am I going to do? Things are going to be so weird between us now, not like they weren't before but now it will be unbearable.

I got up from the bed and steeping over clothes that were scattered o the floor, made my way to the chair that held my clothes from last night. I quickly put them on and then made my way to the bathroom across the hall. When I got there I took a few minuets to look into the mirror and what I saw I didn't like. Moving my hair I saw purple round marks on my neck, crap there's a few all over. Tears threatened to fall as the thought of loosing my virginity tore me up. That could be the worst thing I have ever done and ever will do. To make matters worse I hate the guy and he's not even my friend.

I washed my hands and took a piece of toilet paper to wet in and rubbed it over my face. All I want to do is take a shower and be clean again, but I know that now I will never be clean enough. When I was done in the bathroom I walked downstairs but heard voices. Walking into the kitchen I saw Carter talking to his dad. I guess he came home just now.

"Oh hello Gracie is it?" he asked. I was still fighting tears and just nodded. He looked at me confused and then at Carter.

"Are you okay?" his father asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine I just need to get home. I'll see you around Carter." I spoke lowly. He nodded still looking confused.

"I'll walk you out Gracie." Carter followed me to the door. He reached out for my arm but I flinched back and took a steep away. He looked a little hurt but covered it up quickly.

"I really am sorry, please don't hold this against me."

I opened the door to his house ready to leave. "No it never even crossed my mind." I sarcastically said rolling my eyes. Then I left the house and closed the door. I walked across the lawn and to my house hoping that my family was still asleep. I unlocked the door to the house and then walked in opening the door silently. When I got to my room I saw Michelle sleeping in my bed. Walking over to my dressed I was quiet so I wouldn't wake her. Then I grabbed some clothes and walked to the bathroom so I could have a shower.

When I got in the shower I stood there under the hot water and let the water calm me down so more. I noticed that I had some bruises on my hips that were the size of hands. Carter. I sunk to the floor of the tub and wrapped my arms around my legs. Why did this have to happen to me huh? One stupid ass mistake.