Newt- Love in a Lost World

Our First Fight

I grinned at Minho. I couldn't wait to start my job tomorrow. I hugged all the boys one by one and they left. That is, everyone but Newt.

Newt was still looking gloomy after everyone left. I had no idea why. We were best friends. Shouldn't he be happy for me? I got a job and may be a Runner.

"Newt?" I asked. He looked at me. Suddenly the sadness I could always see in his eyes was now plastered on his face as well. "Are you ok?"

"Y/N, you can't be a Runner. I won't allow it," he said firmly. I was shocked. Who was he to take away my job, my dream job no less.

"Excuse me?" I said. I could my anger rising. "I most certainly can be a Runner if I want to be. Who are you to stop me?"

"No! You cannot and will not go into the bloody Maze! I WILL NOT ALLOW IT!" Newt shouted. 

I could feel myself on the verge of tears. What was wrong with Newt. Why wasn't he supporting me? What was he so afraid of?

"Why? Huh? What do you know about the Maze? What are you so scared of? Why can't I go if you know so much?" I said, now fully crying.

Newt looked like he had so much to say, and yet his sad, secretive eyes won out.

"I know more than you can imagine. Now you are not going and that is final."

Newt started to leave but I grabbed his biceps.

"Why?" I yelled. "Why, Newt?!"

"I CAN'T LOSE YOU!" he shouted. "I just can't," he said much quieter with his voice faltering.

I dropped my hand in shock. What did he mean he couldn't lose me? Why did he care so much? I know we were friends but we still only met two weeks ago.

"Newt," I said softly begging. "Please, why? Tell me why."

"You are the one. The one I have been waiting for for a whole month. I don't doubt it for one minute y/n. And that Maze will ruin you."

I was so lost. What did he mean he was waiting for me? And how did he know so much about the maze?

"What do you know about the Maze?" I inquired. "You are just a Trackhoe."

"That wasn't always the case," Newt said softly. He didn't seem to be willing to go on so I asked him the other question on my mind.

"What did you mean you were waiting for me? How would you know I would come?"

He looked like he was going to answer me for a moment but he didn't. He turned to leave for good, but stopped abruptly. Quick as a whip, he turned and crossed the space between us in one step, and before I realized what was happening, he kissed me.

It was soft and sweet. I brought my hands up from my sides and put them around his face and kissed him back. His hands wrapped around my waist and we stayed there for about three minutes just kissing each other. 

Then he left, seeming happy and his eyes seemed less sad than normal. I went to bed and moved my sleeping bag closer to Newt. I thought he was sleeping but as I was falling asleep I felt his arm go over mine and pull me close. Smiling, I fell asleep in his arms, thinking about that soft, amazing kiss.

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Newt's View

There was no way I was letting her go into that Maze. It was a dark and terrible place. What if she goes through the same thing I went through. I could never lose her. Never.

As everyone hugged y/n and said bye, I stayed in the back to talk to her once everyone was gone.

When Winston hugged her and left she finally looked at me, and I saw her smile falter.

"Newt, are you ok?" she asked looking worried. I looked back at her face and knew I could not bear to lose her.

"Y/N, you can't be a Runner. I won't allow it," I told her, putting as much authority into my voice as possible.

I thought she would be hurt, but she just looked pissed. I didn't care. She could hate me all she wanted, just as long as she was safe.

"Excuse me? I most certainly can be a Runner if I want to be. Who are you to stop me?" she snarled, with her voice rising on every word. I suddenly found myself shouting in desperation.

"No! You cannot and will not go into the bloody Maze! I WILL NOT ALLOW IT!" I couldn't believe i could actually yell at the woman I love. Maybe it was because I loved her so much that I yelled. It was the only way to express my need for her to be safe.

"Why? Huh? What do you know about the Maze? What are you so scared of? Why can't I go if you know so much?" Y/N cried. I couldn't bear to look at her crying and know that I had done that to her. So I thought I should leave.

"I know more than you can imagine. Now you are not going and that is final," I said and turned towards the door, with my own eyes watering. Suddenly, her hand was grabbing me and pulling me back. She was surprisingly strong.

She cried and looked me in the eyes. "Why?" she yelled. "Why, Newt?!"

I couldn't take it anymore. I had to tell her.

"I CAN'T LOSE YOU!" I bellowed. "I just can't." My voice faltered as I felt a tear trickle down my cheek, but she hadn't noticed. She had let go of me and was looking down.

Then she looked at my with her face shining with tears. 

"Newt," she said softly begging. "Please, why? Tell me why."

I just had to tell her everything. And yet, I couldn't. The truth was too painful and I wasn't ready to tell her yet. I made it sound as vague and as confusing as possible.

"You are the one. The one I have been waiting for for a whole month. I don't doubt it for one minute y/n. And that Maze will ruin you."

She looked so confused and worried.

"What do you know about the Maze?" she asked softly. "You are just a Trackhoe."

"That wasn't always the case," I said. If only she knew. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her, so I stayed quiet. But she was ready with another question.

"What did you mean you were waiting for me? How would you know I would come?"

I was going to show her the note and explain everything, but as I looked at her tear streaked face, I couldn't do it. I was so worried she'd be pissed at me for not showing her sooner and I just couldn't bear to look at her face when it was so sad. I turned to leave but stopped. She had to know how I felt about her at least. If I can't stop her from going to the Maze, then she must know how much I love her.

I turned and crossed then room and kissed her, softly. She seemed a little surprised at first but then her hands came to my face and pulled me closer as she kissed me back. I was so overjoyed and found myself putting my hands around her waist to pull her closer to me. I would never forgive myself if I lost her.

After I finished kissing her I left, without another word. I went straight to my sleeping bag by the woods. Eventually she came to go to bed. She moved her sleeping bag around Chuck's sleeping body and moved right in front of me. She got settled in and once she seemed like she was sleeping, I put my arm around her.

Only, I found out she wasn't sleeping, but I didn't care. She moved closer to me and in a way, fell asleep in my arms. As I fell asleep, all I could think about was her, and how I would do everything I could to make sure was safe.