Letters

Twentieth Letter

Dear Ex-wife and Lulu,

          You guys were the least people I actually thought that would stick around and look for me.  I got separated from you guys,  because you always laughed and joked about my profession which I love and I know it was just a joke,  but there got a point where it was enough.  Exwife treated me like I couldn't touch no DS nor anything that was yours,  that bothered me.  You guys always laughed at me and made bad jokes about me and I laughed,  you guys were my friends.  I left the group and didn't care about how you guys felt because I was taking care of myself. 

          Who would ever know that you guys would look for me,  write me,  let me on updates about your life's,  like example,  Lulu told me she got a boyfriend.  You said I was the first one to know.  At that moment,  I really didn't think of the best and didn't care,  but now,  I feel so loved and honored that you told me even if I left you guys. 

          I had my reason to leave,  and it's valid.  But,  I never knew you guys would keep writing when I gave up on you.  I didn't know that you guys would miss me so much.  I didn't know that you guys would be late for class to stalk where I was to just say that you guys missed me. 

          I owe you guys an apology,  I lied and said I was busy,  I wasn't.  I just didn't want to keep hurting myself.  Ive been through this friendship breakups or betrayal or even feeling unloved and used.  I haven't written about her and I dont think I will,  because all I have to say about her is negative,  the only good thing is that she believes in God,  and who knows.  Back to the topic,  I owe you guys,  but you guys owe me one, too. 

          I'm actually really happy that we made friends again with eachother.  I see you guys as my best friends.  You guys are way better now and treat me correctly.  You guys are wonderful friends that I would never change,  nor your attitude.  Ex-wife,  which is actually a boy,  gay boy,  is very dramatic and cries for love easily,  no worries,  I'm the same, love. 

          I have never had someone actually not giving up on me.  Everyone leaves me and gives up,  or doesn't even look for me nor writes me.  I recently got pissed with a person I called bestfriend,  which she isn't,  she's just a faker. I looked up to her.  I wrote a letter about her,
anyway back to the topic.  I love you guys and I thank you a billion times for not giving up on me and loving how I am.  

          Lulu,  I have always liked you,  no,  not in that way.  I love you so much,  you're the only straight girl I've liked as a best friend and that we haven't had our differences or liked the same person.  You are beautiful,  you are cute,  and I love your style.  I love your positive attitude and the love for God.  You don't see that much. I actually look up to you,  because you're fun and nice,  but you can be mean with jokes,  that's cool.  I love how we can talk easily about anything and I love how we aren't afraid,  we just say things normally.  I thank you for your friendship. 

          Ex-wife,  who would know we'd be friends.  I love many things about you.  You are the person that has made fun of me the most,  but I can say we are really alike in many things.  With the one I can relate to more is with you.  I love how you love people,  I love your love for when you have a crush,  I can relate to liking your same sex and that person being straight.  I love your jokes,  I love your passion for love and for nintendo consoles and games.  I love when you came up to me and talk to me about that you're scared,  or that you come up and talk to me about anything,  feels good to be on your side.  Who would know I would write to you more than Lulu. I hope that you see me as almost you see Grace.  I don't want to leave but I want your love, too.  I do love you.  I do think you are handsome,  even kako otaku says so.  I know if you workout you would be handsome as fuck.  Sexy man,  I love you. 

-Loves,  hopefully your best friend,  Alo.