Just a Day In My Life

The Audition - Chapter 11

I walked to my car shaking. I had ruined my Sunday night with all the things I said. I really just wanted to calm down so I turned on my Hamilton soundtrack. It seemed to work because about 5 minutes later I was singing along with the beautiful Lin Manuel Miranda, but even when I was singing Hamilton, I still couldn't get the kiss out my head. I didn't know about Charlie, but that was my first kiss, so I was starstruck.

I tried to get the wonderful lyrics to melt away my feelings. It seemed to work in other times in need, so I thought it would help.

"I am not throwing away my shot, I am not throwing away my shot..." I had mumbled every lyric, trying to concentrate on what I was doing.

"I can't do this!" I had given up on Hamilton. My brain was running all around the place and Hamilton wouldn't make it better. I drove up into the drive way at my house after another 5 minutes. I rushed up to my room and laid down on my bed. I didn't know what to think.

After about an hour, Mikayla came to check up on me and offered me some dinner. I told her I wasn't hungry and didn't eat all that night. I was genuinely scared to go to school tomorrow. I fell asleep laying in my bed the way I did when I first got home. I got so lost in my thoughts that I had fallen asleep.

The next morning I woke up, got dressed, grabbed a quick portray and I was off for the bus. I knew Charlie rose the bus and I really wanted to talk to him. I had my mind set on setting the facts straight with him. There was a breeze that morning that was just unbearable. Without me noticing, Charlie walked up behind me and gave me his jacket. He must have noticed that I was cold because he sacrificed his jacket for me.

"Hey, Natalie." He had decided to start talking to me. I was not expecting him to talk after all the awkwardness I caused.

"Oh uh, hey Charlie! Look I'm sor-"

"Don't be sorry for last night, okay? I made you uncomfortable and that's my fault. I should be sorry." Charlie had got it all wrong. He wasn't the reason I was uncomfortable, I was. "Look, I shouldn't have even kissed you. You weren't comfortable doing it and I should ha noticed that."

"Oh Charlie, but-"

"I'm really sorry. If you don't want to be my friend after all of that, I understand." He seemed really upset. I had really put bad impression on that kiss and it is giving Charlie that wrong idea.

"Charlie, let me talk!" I had startled him. " Charlie, I loved the kiss. You did nothing wrong. It was my fault. I didn't know how to feel about it because I really like you and I ran off. I just want you to know that I thought about you and the kiss all night."

"Oh um, well I like you too, Natalie."

I wanted to tell him that I liked him more that he thought but we had both felt really awkward so I held back. That was until Charlie spoke up a bit.

"Natalie, look. I know we have known each other for a few weeks and you probably won't agree with me but I REALLY like you. Would you want to go and watch a movie or something sometime?"

I was starstruck. I didn't really think that he liked me like that. I always thought that we would just stay friends and never get past that, but now he is the one making the first move.

"Of course Charlie, I would love too."

The bus soon arrived to our stop and I was as red as a cherry, not just from the cold but also from what Charlie had said to me. We both then got on the bus and we were on our way to the school.
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The first few periods past by so quickly. I hadn't really been talking much to Charlie after what had happened at the bus stop. I didn't really want Sophie to find out what had happened, I knew she would be so excited that she wouldn't stop bugging me about it. I hadn't actually told anyone about anything platonic happening between Charlie and I.

Throughout the day, I was running my scenes and monologue through my head for the audition. I was prepared for anything he threw at me. I was glad we had sorted out our situation at the bus because I wanted to make sure I was in the best mood for this audition. To be honest, this is the best mood I've ever been in.

The first time I had talk to Charlie all day was when we walked into the black box.

"Are you ready for the audition?"

"Of course I am, I got to practice with a wonderful girl last night." He was making me blush, which was cute but not the best time. I didn't get on to him though. It put me in an even better mood, so I was fine with letting it slide. As soon as we sat down, class started. The director then gave his 'before audition' speech and we got started.

First up was Sophie. She was so ecstatic for the audition and volunteered to go first. The director said we could go out in the hallway and go over our monologues, so I did just that. I didn't want to waste any second of rehearsal time if I know that I'm going up against Sophie.

One by one other students walked in so they could watch auditions and audition themselves. After about five people went in one ata a time, Charlie and I decided to go in. Once we walked in, I was called up for my audition. I was not excited to do it.

I suddenly felt super queasy, which was not a normal thing for me to do. I was dizzy and shaken up from the fear of losing the role to Sophie. I didn't get it. Sophie was my friend, I should want her to get that role and do good in her audition.

Then I slated "Hi my name is Natalie Longford and I will be performing The prince's slave." I got right into the audition.

"Why do you keep me locked up like this? Am I some animal to you? I love you with all my heart and all you do is take it for granted. What do you get out of that. Nothing I bet. You probably do that with all you girls before you set them free. You break their hearts and throw the out to suffer the pain of the real world." I stare right into Charlie's eyes, his is where I could pull out all my emotions. "Well, I won't let you do that to me. I won't let you use me for granted and let me go when your done. If you really loved me, you would care for me. You would hug me, comfort me when I'm down and support me when in need it. Am I some slave to you? When you aren't of use of my work, you set me free? If you really did love me, you'd leave me. You would spare me of this pain and rethink your definition of love. So what is it going to be? Will my Prince ever set his slave free?  End scene."

I had blown everyone out the park. I didn't think I did that well but everyone else seemed to enjoy it so much.

I had sat down next to Sophie knowing that Charlie was up next. Charlie had slated his piece and began. He intensely stared into my eyes just like I did. I didn't hear or pay attention to his monologue though. I was too busy getting lost in his eyes.

The period had shortly ended after Charlie had finished his audition. The rest of the day flew by and didn't seem as eventful anyways compared to my audition. I seemed as if chair and I connected on a deeper level throughout all of it. I just wasn't ready for what was coming towards me.
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Hey guys. Sorry I haven't really uploaded as frequently. School is catching up to me.
Not so important but I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE GT (gifted and talented) PROGRAM AT MY SCHOOL!!!
mini celebration.