Cherry Bomb (Big Time Rush)

I'm A Boy Pt. 2

James blinked, trying to process the statement that just sounded like some horrible foreign language and his eyes were wide.

". . .W-What?"

"But Kendall is fine! Kendall and the baby are both fine and healthy! And you didn't miss it by that much, just maybe ten minutes or something! And Kendall will be really happy to. . .James?" Carlos said and the taller brunette almost collapsed, Dak and Carlos quickly catching him. James let out a strangled cry and it felt like he couldn't breathe. He missed it. He missed his child's birth by ten minutes. It seemed like he missed it by hours. The one thing that he wanted to do right and James managed to screw that up too. He failed Kendall, he failed his child. Dak was rubbing his back and Carlos was trying to comfort the distraught father but James couldn't help it, feeling tears slipping from his eyes.

"James, it's alright. You're here. It's not that bad," Dak said soothingly and James gritted his teeth, wanting to punch a wall. It was that bad, James wanted a better start with Kendall and his child and now he wasn't there at the first moments of his newborn's life. He wasn't there to hear the first cry or see the first swinging of a tiny fist or be the first to hold his baby like he wanted to.

"It's my fault. I'm so sorry, I tried to get here-"

"We know, we know. It's alright," Carlos said softly, his voice sounding calmer and sweeter than the frantic and angry voicemail. James let out another whimper and Carlos wrapped arms around the taller male, hugging him tight. "It's alright, James. Kendall is really tired and he doesn't need you going in there all shook up like this."

"He doesn't need me. . ." James mumbled and Dak rolled his eyes, taking James and shaking him until the brown hair was in a tousled mess.

"Look, you need to suck it up. They need you in there and they want you in there. You were late, so what. You missed ten minutes, you have a lifetime to make up for it. Now get in there and see your kid and Kendall," Dak said sternly and it looked like Carlos was beginning to eagerly bounce, grabbing onto James' hand and directing him to the room where Kendall was residing. When Carlos opened the door, it was quiet with Logan sitting down beside the hospital bed that Kendall was currently sleeping in. The suited man glanced over and he smiled brightly, quietly getting up and moving to give James a warm pat on the back.

"Glad that you're here. He's just sleeping," Logan whispered and James nodded, eyes never leaving Kendall's calmed and slightly pale face. James' eyes were also scanning the room for a little baby somewhere resting, biting his lip when he didn't see anything of the sort.

"Where's the baby? Is it a boy or a girl?"

"Oh well-"

Carlos nudged Logan in the side and the brunette shot a look at the Latino man before making a 'Oh' with his lips. He turned to James and pointed over at Kendall. "Why don't you ask him?"

Before James could stutter out something, Carlos was already pulling Logan out of the room and leaving the brunette alone with the person that birthed his child. He walked over and sat down in the chair that Logan was sitting in. Kendall's face was slowly regaining color and his lips were drawing parted breaths that James immediately fell in love with all over again. Kendall was beautiful, he was everything that James adored and he never wanted to lose him again.

"Stop staring at me," Kendall mumbled and James blushed, seeing the eyes flutter and Kendall looking over at him.

"How did you know I was looking?"

"Because you used to do that when I slept in bed with you."

"Can you blame me? You're beautiful."