Broken Desires

Heartache

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Chapter 10

Avery's POV

**That same Night**

As soon as Spencer and I got to the coffee shop I headed straight for my room. I honestly have no clue on how to feel but I need to clear my head. I hop in the shower and change my clothes which was basically a pair of jeans and a sweater. I let out a shaky breath I didn't even know I was holding in, then head down the street. I passed by the places that Spencer had driven past before until I ended up at Harry's apartment.

I knocked on the door and he immediately opened the door. His eyebrows were pushed together and his eyes were bloodshot, he looked as if he just been through the most tragic thing in the world. Thoughts began to rumble in my mind and I started to panic.

"Hey" I nervously flipped my hair to the side of my neck and bit the inside of my mouth. He nodded at me and tears started to well in his eyes. He opened the door wide enough where I could come in, the once clean apartment with nicely decorated decor was on the floor and broken.

Harry took a seat on the bed his face numb and lifeless. A long sweater covered his arm and he closed his eyes tight, "Harry did you?-" he cut me off with a nod and I moved toward the bed "C-can I see them?" he just stared at the wall lifeless tears falling down his face. I rolled up his sleeves and winced at the sight.

Long, deep jagged lines were cut all through his skin. Pools of tears started to form in my eyes when I noticed the carved lines that spelt out 'Worthless'.

I stood back up and finally found the words to speak "Harry, your not worthless" he looked down at his scars. "Yes I am" the words flowed out his mouth no emotion left. "Harry you can't keep doing this to yourself" he finally looked up at me and spoke "Yes I can" he stood up a flame of anger now ripping through his eyes "I can do whatever the fuck I want to my body!" I winced and stood back a few feet.

"W-what happend?" I stuttered. Harry paused for a few moments and then spoke again "You don't know me" he spoke silently. "You don't fucking know me!" I know I didn't know him, yet I felt so close to him.

"You don't know what the fuck it's like! Do you fucking know how great it is to be able, FOR ONCE IN MY DAMN LIFE, I CAN CONTROL MY OWN PAIN" Harry's rage built with every step he took toward me.

"That's right, cause you don't fucking know what it's like. You will never know it's like to be me" he took a pause and then continued "You will never understand, so stop fucking trying"

I was taken aback by the words being thrown at me "You know what, I don't know it's like to be you! All I want to do is fucking help, okay?! I just want to help you" I took a pause and then continued.

"But you know what, fuck you I don't want to help you anymore" I started walking toward the door when I heard a faint voice behind me.

"I-I couldn't protect her"

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Liam's POV:

"Listen Sophia, I love you, I really do but I don't think you and I are right together."

Her eyes brimmed with tears and my heart ached as she spoke.

"W-why Liam?" She cried

"Sophia I don't know I think I'm falling for someone else, babe-"

"No Liam don't babe me, okay! Forget that, that we even fucking met." She laughs dryly while cutting me off.

"You know I really thought you were different." She was balling at this point and I really couldn't help myself from hugging her small body. Just because I felt like I was starting to have feelings for Avery didn't mean I didn't have any feelings for Sophia.

She pushed me away and my face turned sour.

"Sophia you really don't understand. Just give me sometime to figure out my f-feelings and I promise you that you'll be with someone who can treat so good whether it's me or someone else. But trust and believe me I've always loved you and my heart belonged to you our entire relationship." I breathed heavily and she nodded her head.

"Liam I love you." She said and leaned into my body I hugged her back. My lips pressed the top of her head as I turned around and started to walk away I could hear her faint cries and my heart fluttered.

Well her goes nothing.

I walk to the coffee shop and unlock the door.

"Spencer!" My voice booms throughout the small cafe. His lean body flies down the stairs as I brew myself a cup of dark coffee.

"Hey Liam" his voice slightly hoarse due to him just awakening.

The hot coffee falls down my throat as I began to speak.

"Spencer I really need some advice. right now. I just broke it all off with Sophia but I don't know if it was the best choice, I don't even know if Avery likes me fuck I barely even know her." I sigh I have to be right I don't know her, I've known Sophia since high school. But that night, A-Avery she was so broken and I wanted to help her, I-I want her to feel loved" Spencer runs a hand through his hair and sighs.

"I honestly don't know, just give it time" I nod and take seat in the booth, thinking of the night I held her and the night I promised her I wouldn't let go.

And I wouldn't

I couldn't.

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A/N:

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