Road to peace

DARKNESS

I panted loudly as I continued to run like crazy between the big buildings, the darkness never seemed to end, whatever how much I am trying to increase the speed, my footsteps are getting slower, I feel like running in place.

I didn't seemed to be going anywhere.

I am desesperatly trying to move forwards, when suddenly a large deep puddle of water apperead in front of me, preventing from escaping these demons and I end up falling in the puddle.

I turned my head and the dark mist was getting closed by the second. I am struggling to push my body up to the surface but in vain, It's like if someone what trying to drown me, I countinued to try but I just keep sinking deeper and deeper.

The water started to escape into my throat, making my lungs aching. I contunied to move around, desperate for some air. I finally came back to the surface with a loud gasp. I let it out a sight of relief as the fresh air finally meet my lungs

I climbed out of the water, I am trying to run, to move, but my legs are paralized by fear, my whole body is shaking, I felt the mist approchaing me and I couldn't help but cry.

"Why are tiring yourself by fighting?" It whisipered in my ears.

"DIE.You don't deserve to live. You know it yourself, admit it, you're are more useless than a keyboard without keys.." Waves of tears drowned down my cheeks as if I felt what the mist said is totally true.

My sight started to fade and...

****

I gasped as I opened my eyeswidely. I looked around the living room, I sighed in relief as I rubbed my eyes.

It happened again...But this time, it was worse. Every emotion was real. I don't know how I ended up in the living room when I slept yesterday night in my bedroom.

I scrambled to stand up as mom just arrived.

"Hailey!Are you okay?" She said,worry obvious in her tone.

"I am (not) fine, It is just another episode..." I hugged her tight, trying to not cry in front her.

"Take your breakfast and change your clothes,we will go out" She said.

The doctor. I was about to oppose but I knew it will be in vain, I simply noded and headed upstairs.

****

"So now,you said she is even sleepy walking?" The doctor asked mom.

It occurs more often now, sometimes even in public. Sick of the whispers and insults like weirdo, crap as well as the disgusted and fearful looks, I barely make a step outside my room unless to have a medical consultation.

"Apparently... I don't know what really happened,but today I found her in the living room white like a ghost, she was breathing heavly as if she ran a marathon and her legs were shaking like a leaf, she couldn't even stand up...."

People doesn't understand the hell I am going through it. I am living in a constant fear. I am tired of this game, It is pushing me over the edge but I refuse to accept that I am going insane.

"...So miss,ready for a new begining?" The doctor get me out of my train of thoughts.

I am having absolutly no idea about what this man is talking about.

A beginning? I am rather looking for an ending.

"hum,excuse me but I did not really follow your conversation" I said in a disinterested tone.

"I was explaining to your mother the need to change your environment and start doing things all teens do like going out with friends..."

Friends? What are those?

I didn't payed attention to what he was saying after this. He is completely insane. I don't understand how changing the four walls that surround me will make a difference..

"Alright,let's do whatever you suggest" I rolled my eyes away.