Bangtan Angst [ Editing ]

Chances [ JiKook ]

[ Angst #JiKook ]

Jeon Jungkook, He is madly and deeply inlove with.. none other than-- KIM TAEHYUNG.

Park Jimin, badly and deeply needs jungkook's attention. But the younger always ignores him.

They have been bestfriends since they were kids, Jimin won't forget that moment he first met jungkook, When Young Jungkook came to save his butt from falling off to the ground.

Since then Young Jimin had his eyes for Jungkook. It may sound selfish but Jimin wants the younger for Himself. But I guess love makes us do something we don't realize we can actually do.

Jimin tried his very best to get the younger's attention. But jungkook is just too busy to pay attention to him. Too busy watching taehyung. "Oh jungkook-ah~ when will you notice me? and my love for you--" Jimin half whispered, not sure if the younger has heard him, looking down his fingers as he fiddles with it.

but kookie just ignored him , chuckling as he says "What? Hyung? You were saying?" Jungkook glances at Jimin as he shows to him uis famous bunny smile. 'He didn't heard me? Good thing then' Jimin thought looking down at his feet, not responding to what the Younger had just ask him.

Well he is shy you can't blame him.

Jungkook has successfully forced Jimin to Watch The Basketball Game at their School Grounds. Why? Well his long time crush, Tae is Playing.
"Hyung.. Help me winning TaeTae's heart! I wish I could hold him in my arms" Jungkook plead, his eyes not leaving the said boy that was playing across the room.

Flashback

Jimin only rolled his eyes, letting out a sigh as he responded with "yeah- you're obssesed with him" Jimin puts up a faint smile as the younger glances at him, before returning his gaze to the other male that he calls his "love of his life"

Jungkook's smile would reach his eyes as soon as he catch a glimpse of his long time crush Taehyung. Something Jimin doesn't experience when he is with the younger. He can't help but to feel envious.

A week passed by, Jiminnie isn't being clingy to him anymore, His' eyes doesn't twinkles to cresents when he smiles, His laugh that everyone loved, no longer echoed through Jungkook's ears. He must admit that he misses his hyung being all soft and cute. He felt a heaviness building up in his chest as the thought of Jimin not being him crosses his mind.

Well ofcourse he is used to his hyung's accompany, he wants to be with him, to see his hyung's smile, to hear his laugh. Ofcourse he misses his hyung, he is just too numb to notice, He kepts pushing what he really feels for Jimin.

Its kind of weird though, because all he knows he only likes taehyung and taehyung only. Taehyung was his long time crush, and Jimin... Jimin is just--

He was the one who was there always with him, to cheer him up, make him laugh, make him smile and He even treats Jungkook with his favorite snacks. Jimin was there to listen and give advice when Jungkook needed it. He misses him...

But when jimin is around him, all he talk about is how handsome taehyung is, How much he like Taehyung, How should he asked Taehyung out. Which Jimin silently takes all the harsh slap of the reality; "That Jungkook would never like him"

End of Flashback

"Hyung.. Help me winning TaeTae's heart! I wish I could hold him in my arms" Jungkook plead, his eyes not leaving the said boy that was playing across the room. Jimin just remained silent, His eyes glued to the floor.

"Well Who am I, compared to Kim Taehyung..." Jimin said, startling the Younger as Jungkook looks at him as he suddenly gets up from sitting position.

A tear roll into his eyes, walking out of jungkook's sight suddenly. Jungkook caught his hyung shedding Tears as they endlessly fall, quickly driving far away from him as soon as he got in his Car. Jungkook didn't know why the elder suddenly rans away. But he felt a pang of pain in his chest as he witnessed the Older crying.

A sudden wash of worry hit jungkook. "Did I say something wrong?"

For jimin. it hurts him, it hurts to see your lover chasing his lover. Jimin's eyes was brimming with tears, making his vision blurry, Making it impossible to see.

To say he is hurt is an understatement. I would rather say, he is broken. He can't take it anymore... He just can't help it because what he feels for him is already deep.

It has been 3 days without his hyung, he isn't still at their shared home.

3 am in the morning there was a knock heard into jimin and kookie's shared apartment.

"Who the hell will visit the house in an ungodly hour?!" kookie messes his hair, looking at the other bed across his. Finding out that his hyung wasn't still there. well he thought he would be. He looked around their shared apartment

"Huh? hyung is still not here?" Jungkook rushed down to see any traces of his Jiminnie hyung. But the knocking snaps him out and he went to open the door. A police officer.

"are you perhaps, Jeon JungKook, do you happen to know Mr. Park Jimin?" just by the mention of his hyung's name his heart skipped a beat. "Yeah, i am jeon jungkook, and yes i know Park Jimin he is my roomat--- no he is my bestfriend, Why where is he? he isn't home for 3 days. Is he okay? Was he arrested?"

as he let those words slip through him, he remembers what happened before his hyung went lost, He remembered rejecting him, Hurting him and letting him leave with a shattered heart.

"I'm sorry to say Mr. Jeon, but your bestfriend was found dead on A red lamborgini car that crushed and hit a tree, and we happen to check the body and we find out its Mr. Park's. investigation says the break of the car wasn't working well- "

"Sorry? what did you say?! thats not a good joke officer!!" the younger was in utter shock as he balls his fist. A sudden flash of memories of him and jimin having fun clouded his thoughts. The words of the officer echoing in his head as he felt dizzy.

"No... Tell me its just a joke!! I-I love him!! please!! " These words absentmindedly left his mouth as he kepts punching the wall. He realizes that, he actually loves the way jimin's eyes crinkles into cresents, The way Jimin's laugh sounded like a music to him as it echoes inside the four walls of their apartment, and yes... it is too late.

He wishes it was a dream but the police gives him a picture of the car, which make him realize, it is reality.

The police officer also gave him a Phone. " Mr. Jeon, This is Mr. Park's Phone, We find it on his car." Glancing at the cracked and broken phone as his eyes suddenly brims with tears.

He is so busy, Chasing taehyung that he forgot he has jimin by his side. tears formed into his eyes letting it slide through his cheeks. "I-I am sorry I didn't pay so much attention to you, Jiminnie hyung. I-I love you..." He whispered, as he fall of the floor hugging his knees.

he is so stupid for searching somewhere else when the only love of his life is just infront of him, waiting for him to be loved back.

You'll only realize their love once they walk away taking your piece of heart with them, and its hurts jungkook so much. it hurts him, for being, numb, dumb, naive and stupid. will there be other chances to see his hyung..?

" It is true we only realized someone's worth once they're out of your grasp/life. " -Andrea C.