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I knocked hard on his door. A bottle of whiskey in my hand. There was no response. I knocked hard on his door once again. My body rested against it as my legs nearly gave way. "It's jussme," I loudly slurred. "A-Avi, remember me?"

I knocked hard once more. I could hear movement behind the door. "I just want to talk. You haven't forgotten about me, have you?" I drank from my large bottle that was nearly finished. "I haven't forgotten about you," I placed my hand on the doorknob and tried turning it. "I could never forget about you," I continuously knocked on the door. "You and your big, fat c-" The door opened and I nearly fell onto him.

He was angry. His face said it all. He looked around the hallway and back at me. His anger made me laugh. I found it hard to take him seriously. I started cackling like a maniac. "Get in here," He whisper shouted angrily at me.

He opened the door wider and I slumped my way into the room, finally finishing my bottle of whiskey. He closed the door behind him and followed behind me. I walked straight into his kitchen.

"Are you drunk?" He questioned curiously, looking down at me. I could see the disappointment in his eyes.

"Hell yeah, baby," I laughed. I opened his fridge and picked up an alcohol bottle.

"What the hell do you want?" He questioned sharply.

I opened a bottle and took a swig from it. "I came to have some fun," I tugged on the sides of his shirt and brought him closer to me. "I came to see you, daddy," I roughly connected our lips. He pushed me away but I clutched onto him. "Don't you want to see me?" I tried kissing him but he avoided me. "Come on, let's have some fun,"

"Let go of me," He commanded angrily. He tried pulling me off but I couldn't let go.

"Come on baby, let loose,"

"Avi, let go,"

"No," I slurred playfully, tugging at his t-shirt.

"Avi, I don't want to hurt you just let go of me," I gripped a little harder onto his shirt.

"J-Just kiss me," I pleaded shakily. His hands gripped onto mine trying to pull me off.

"No,"

"Please?" I begged as began to feel my emotions rise.

"Avi," He sternly spoke. He was stronger than me. He managed to forcefully pulled my hands off of him.

Tears began falling down my face profusely. I broke down in tears. "Why don't you want me?" I sobbed looking down. My tears fell onto the ground in front of me.

"Go home," He instructed but I shook my head.

"N-No," I stuttered in between sobs. "Not until you tell me why?" I looked up into his eyes, trying to find him inside. I looked up at him just for a second but I just couldn't bare to look at him anymore. I looked back down at the ground. "Why don't you want me?" My sobs turned into drunken hiccups.

He sighed deeply. "You were my first everything," I sobbed. "You can't just throw me away like this," I could barely speak. "You can't throw away everything we did,"

"Avi, just go home," He tried to send me away but I shook my head.

"I'm not leaving without an answer. Do you really hate me that much? Did I really fuck up that bad?" I sobbed wiping away my tears. I looked over at him. He had his back turned to me. "You know, you never showed up to my graduation. I saw my family but I never saw you. W-Where were you?" I sniffled, wiping my tears away.

He stayed silent. "You know what, I should've never forgiven you," I admitted. He turned around looked at me angrily.

"You don't mean that," He responded in an offended tone.

"Yes I do," I shouted at him. "I wouldn't be in this position. I could have found someone who actually cared about me,"

"I do care about you,"

"You have a weird way of showing it,"

"Well, I'm sorry but if my boyfriend doesn't want to listen to me, why should I waste my time? You clearly prefer Aiden over me. No matter how many times I tell you he's bad news, you just say I'm overreacting. You never listen and now look what he's done to you,"

"H-He," I could barely finish my sentence. My vision became distorted. I could feel myself becoming dizzy. "Y-You don't know what you're talking about,"

"Yes I do. Admit it, you know I'm right," My hearing turned fuzzy. I couldn't hear him. I couldn't think straight. "He's drugged you up just to have you. Well he's succeeded. You're now his drugged up puppet. You're his now,"

"Sc-Scott, I" I stood up which made everything worse. I felt like the world was turning upside down. Spinning round and round. There was a loud ringing in my ear. My stomach was churning. My heart was thumping out of my chest. I turned round to try and look at Scott, he was just a blurred figure moving in slow motion.

I had no idea what was going on in my body. I was absolutely terrified. I couldn't feel my body. I felt numb. Tears of fear ran down my cheeks. I had taken a back seat in my own mind but I wanted to regain control.

I tried speaking but I could barely hear anything. I looked back at Scott, my vision getting cloudier. "W-What's happening to me?" were the last words I spoke before I could feel myself falling to the ground.

a/n: thanks for reading...

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