Bratty thief stole my heart

Chapter 21: How to mend a broken heart

Levi's Pov:

How the fuck did I get in a position like this?

I've been asking myself this on a regular base ever since I had almost killed Eren, but I was pretty sure that this time was the worst one.

I was currently sitting on my bed, a peacefully snoring Eren sprawled out next to the me while I was trying to sort my life out and comprehend what I had done just an hour ago.

After my talk with Hanji I had spent the rest of the day and the whole night in my office, hiding myself behind the pile of paperwork on my desk. I had needed some time to properly think about my attitude and how to act in front of Eren after my sudden outburst of affection for him and my rushed leaving. I probably shouldn't have left him like this, but like I said I had been in need of some space to plan my next steps, because to be honest I had no idea what was to come next. Usally I had everything under my controle, everyone around me and especially my feelings, but whenever I was around Eren they were all over the place. I've never felt so unsure about anything before and it scared me.

During the day I've considered visiting Eren multiple times, but everytime I made up a stupid excuse why I couldn't leave my work right then. Eren probably didn't really care though, he had almost got shot and had other things running through his cute little head than me. Wait, did I want him to think of me? Nah, why should I?

I was so stupid for getting myself in a mess like this. And even though my head knew fully well that this should've never happened and that I would have to tell Eren that this meant nothing for us, I couldn't deny that I had enjoyed the kiss very much and that the fact he had kissed back had caused my stomach to do backflips.

I was still brooding over how irresponsible I was to allow myself to get stuck in this mess of emotions when I heard a movement next to me.  Turning my head I saw Eren slowly opening his gorgeous eyes, blinking a few times to adjust to the dimmed light of the evening. He sat up, looking around in confusion, but when his gaze on me, he smiled.

"Hey Levi", he chimed, looking a bit too happy for someone who had witnessed another person getting shot in front of his eyes, but I guess with the kind of childhood he had, he was able to cope with stuff like that very fast.

"Hey brat ", I replied halfheartedly, not in the mood to deal with his too fucking bright personality.

"Uh, how late is? Did I sleep long?", he asked, gazing out of the window at the setting sun.

"No, only about two hours, it's still early evening. Do you feel okay?"

Damn, why was I showing concern for him again when I would rather just ignore him and this whole fucked up situation. I wasn't keen on talking about this very special 'incident' or with Eren in general right now. But apparently that was exactly what the brat wanted to talk about. He straightened up his back, hishands fiddeling nervously, but the all too familiar determination showing ever so clear in the deep pools of green his eyes were.

"Levi, I think we need to talk."

I raised an eyebrow.

"Oh, do we? About what?"

Eren's face furrowed and shifted a bit closer.

"Don't play dumb, you know that exactly what I want to talk about. You've kissed me!"

"Can't you just forget about?, I asked, letting my voice sound annoyed, even though my feelings could be rather described as uncomfortable and anxious.

"Forget about it? How could I ever forget something like? Hell, I'd even remember if I had already been dead when you kissed me! How can you act so reserved about it?"