I Love You to the Moon and Back

14th February

14th February

Dear Blake,

It's been 3 weeks since you went dancing with the angels. Do you know how I feel? Why the hell did you leave me? You promised me you won't. What am I going to do now? You're selfish. You're only thinking about yourself! I hate you for this. I'm alone Blake. All alone. Denise went out with her Josh today. Do you know what day it is? It's Valentine's Day. Remember you kidnapped me from my house just because I don't want to go out with you on Valentine's Day? You were a jerk then. A heartless jerk. That's what you told me. You played girls. That's why I rejected you. I still don't know why you asked me out. I was plain and simple. I was neither sexy nor gorgeous.

Anyway, you so called "kidnapped" me. I remember how I kicked your jewels. I'm so sorry about that but you deserved it. I wonder if you're celebrating Valentine's Day up there. Have you moved on already? I know you probably moved on already because the angels up there are breath taking gorgeous. Great! Now, I'm feeling insecure with myself. Are they wearing red skimpy dresses? I wonder if they are even allowed. Whatever, I don't care.

Back to the date, you brought me to dinner at my favorite steak house. We danced under the moonlight and you gave me a kiss on the cheek. Thank god you did that because I was not ready to kiss you on the lips. That was one of the best nights of my life. I can never forget about that day Blake. You made me so happy. I felt really special. Thinking about it always brings a smile to my face. I wish you can see me Blake. I want you to see me smiling.

I know you must be wondering by now why the hell am I writing you a letter, right? I don't know myself. I felt like writing. Maybe it's because I was thinking you would find it in the future. But I think it's impossible. You're buried 8 ft deep. I hate not having you by my side. I've been crying myself to sleep every night. No one bothered to care. I miss you Blake. I miss you so much. It hurts knowing that I can never see you again and I'll never be yours again. It's worse than a stab in my heart. Worse than that.

I better go to bed now. I need rest. My head and eyes hurt.

I love you Blake. I love you to the moon and back.

Carina

AN: Heyyyooooo Yeah yeah, another new story? What am I thinking? This idea came to my head while I listening to "Ronan" by Taylor Swift. It's going to be short. I think I might upload this every day. I hope you guys like this chapter. I actually felt teary eyed when I was typing out the last part. Hahaha.

So yeah, ummm I hope you guys will vote, comment, share, and fan! It means a lot to me :D

Till next time, loves.

M <3