I Love You to the Moon and Back

17th February

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17 February

Dear Blake,

Hey. How are you? How's upstairs? I went to school today. I know I haven't been to school for three weeks. I'm sorry. If you were here, you would've forced me out of bed but I can't help it. I couldn't stop thinking about you. I bawled around the whole day yesterday. I thought of the times we were together. I still have our picture of us on my bed side table. I can still remember the day we took that picture.

It was your birthday and your parents surprised you by giving you two tickets to go to Italy. I seriously thought you would bring Drake. I mean, come on. He is your best friend. But then, you didn't. You took me instead. I remembered you came to my house at 3 in the morning just to ask me to go with you. I denied and said no because I had to babysit my little brother but you somehow talked to my mom. I was so shocked that she agreed to let me go. You let me pack for two days and damn, was I scared on the plane. You know I hate travelling on the plane but having you sitting by my side let me forget all my worries.

We were going out for a month by that time and we have never slept on the same bed before. Yeah. I wanted things to go slower because I was afraid. It was weird sharing a room with you but at the end, I loved it. I loved every moment we spent together. When you slept by me, I couldn't help but grin. I loved having you close to me. You make me feel so safe, Drake. You were my super hero. I love waking up in the morning to see you looking down at me and smiling. I thought back of when I first woke up in the morning to see you by my side. You gave me a sweet kiss. I miss your kisses. They still make my stomach flutter with butterflies. I can still feel the kisses you gave me on my lips. I can still remember when we first kissed. It was more than a year ago. I just miss you so much. I want to curl up in a ball and cry till I die so I can be with you.

We went shopping and to a carnival. It was so much fun. I remember eating a lot of cotton candy and ended up having a stomach pain. We even went to the sea side and someone was so nice, they took a picture of us. Yeah, that's the picture by my bed side table. You had your arms around my waist, kissing my temple and you were looking down at me while I was looking at the camera smiling like an idiot. I love that picture a lot. You also have a picture of us by your table too right? I was kissing your cheek and you were smiling at the camera. That was taken a week after the Italy trip when we went to the beach.

I miss looking at you Blake. I miss your touch just looking at the picture. I know you love calling me a cam whore cause everywhere I go, I take pictures of myself. But hey! You love it cause you join me in the picture too. I will forever keep our pictures. I think I have about a thousand pictures of us.

Oh, that reminds me. I hate school. Yeah, I know I told you I went at the beginning of this letter but I really hate school. Everyone was giving me a pity look. I hate it. They think I will break down and cry at a random moment. Well, that may be true but come on, Blake. You know me. I'm strong. I even promised you that I will be strong. I know you told me to move on but I will not. Yes, I'm stubborn. I don't care. I will not. I will never. I can't just forget you.

So yeah, stupid school. I even saw Drake and boy, was he sad. I asked him whether he was okay but he just looked at me and gave me a faint smile. Looking at him reminded me of you, so I cried. Yep. Sorry, I broke down in front of your best friend. But he was nice enough to comfort me. He gave me a hug and was telling to let it all out. He smelled good but yours was better. Way better.

I better finish my stupid history homework. I missed you at lunch today. Sitting by you and seeing you stuffing food in your mouth like a pig but that's why I love you. Well, I better go. I will write to you soon. I'm still wondering whether you will get to read my letters one day. I have a feeling you will. A crazy feeling.

I love you Blake, I love you to the moon and back.

Carina

AN: I uploaded! I want to thank you for reading this J It really means a lot. Please comment, vote, share and fan. I will upload tomorrow again, I think. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and sorry for any mistakes. I feel so bad for Carina. Losing her love one. I just hope she will be happy later. Hehehe :3

I got to go xD

Thank you again!

Xoxo,

M <3