I Love You to the Moon and Back

25th February

25th February

Dear Blake,

I'm sorry. I'm very sorry. I haven't written to you for more than a week. Life has been really hectic for me. People kind of stopped giving me the pity looks at school. I have millions of homework to do and Denise said it's a good thing because I was distracted. I don't know whether it's good because the more I wouldn't have enough sleep at night. I still wear your shirts to bed you know? It still has your smell especially your hoodie. I'm glad you left some of your clothes in my room. Wearing them makes me feel closer to you and safer.

Blake, do you know it's the 25th today? It's been already a month since you left me. I went to your grave this afternoon and sat there for like 4 hours I think. I talked to you but then of course you didn't reply back. My parents were really worried when I was not home. They drove around to find me but they couldn't but then Denise did. She saw me lying by your grave stone and she asked Drake to come. Drake picked me up and drove me home. I woke up on my bed and saw both of them sitting down in silence. It's really weird. Denise gave me a hug when she saw me awake and I'm sorry. I was not strong enough to hold my tears. I cried. It's really easy for me to break down. You were my first love Blake. My first for everything. You even stole my first kiss not that I'm complaining anymore.

I've been having mood swings these days. I've also been vomiting nonstop. I think I have a stomach flu or something. It's been two days I was not feeling well. Denise and Drake stayed with me and I didn't go to school. My parents were really worried but I told them that I have my friends to take care of me. If you were, I have a feeling I'll feel better. You're my remedy.

It's 6 in the evening now. Drake and Denise forced me to go to a party. I don't want to go but then you clearly told me to have fun and not to dwell on the past. So, for you, I will go. I will do anything for you and you know it. The party is in Rebecca's house. You know the head cheerleader? I'm glad she doesn't hate me cause she hates most girls in our school. But then, I don't really care. She is just my hi/bye friend and she only comes to me when she needs something.

I almost forgot! Josh finally asked Denise to be his girlfriend and they've been going out for 5 days already! That's like the longest relationship Josh has ever had but I think Denise is the girl for him right?

Anyway, I better go and get ready. Drake will be here in an hour and a half. Apparently, he said we need to be fashionably late. Drake and his sense of humor. Hahaha (my sarcastic laugh)

Well, I'll write to you soon Blake. I miss you so much even more than before. I would do anything just to have you by my side but I know it's impossible. I hope you're having fun in heaven with the angels but not too fun. Remember, I'm your girl! If I was there I would skin them alive if they're hitting on you.

I love you Blake. I love you to the moon and back.

Carina

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