Didn't end yet | B.BH

Chapter 21

          I drove to back to my house since Jinyoung told me that he stayed at my house. Why he can't let me go ? Just go get that woman and leave me. I don't want to continue my life as his wife. I will keep ask that until he let me go. I parked my car in garage before entered my house. Yejun saw me that made him ran to me.

" Mama " he hugged me. I hugged him back.

" Is it everything fine ? " Jinyoung asked and handed me a cup of hot chocolate.

" I guess " I took it from his hand. We sat on couch at living room.

" If you tired, just go rest. Yejun can stay with me" he said.

" It's okay " I replied shortly. I took a sip of hot chocolate that he made for me. The silence controlled us. Yejun played with his toy which totally ignore us.

" He know about Hyun " I spoke. He looked at me worriedly.

" I wish he will never know about that " I added.

" As Hyun father, he deserved to know " he held my hand and squeezed it.

" Do you still love him ? " he asked that made me look at him. Then, I turned my gaze to Yejun.

" I don't know " I sighed.

" What do you felt when you saw him during interview before ? " What kind of question he just asked me ?

" I want to ask him a lot of things. Why he come back after three years left me completely hopeless ? Why he need to show up when I just want to build a new life ? Why I met him - " I stopped myself from continue what I'm going to say.

" You still love him but you putted all the blame on him to hate him " He said. I just don't know.

" If Hyun still here, will you forgive him ? "

" I might do that for Hyun " I mumbled. I don't want Hyun don't have father.

" The reason Hyun left you not because of him but Nana. She was a person who push you not Baekhyun " he explained.

" But because of Baekhyun, she pushed me " I continued.

" You hoping he will know what happened on you for that three years but have you know what happened to him at that time ? " I lost my words. I felt like that really hit me.

" You know what you doing. Please stop torture yourself. Call me if you need anything " He stood up. He gave a peck on Yejun's cheeks before left.

          I blamed him with what happened for three years. When he don't know anything about what happened. After he came back, I hoped he know every painful moments I have gone through without tell him anything. I never know what happened on him after he left me. Chanyeol wants to tell me but I stopped him.

          Is it I'm wrong at this moment ? Is it my fault ? Even when I carried his baby, I never tell him but blamed him for Hyun lost. I ran my hand through my hair and sighed heavily. I just hope someone will give me an answer for my question.

" Mama " I looked up and gave Yejun a small smile.

" Papa always tell me, it fine to cry because it doesn't mean you weak but you have been strong for a long times " He said. I pulled him into my embraced.

" Will Hyun forgive mama ? " I asked.

" Of course, Hyun will forgive mama if mama changed for the better " Hyun-ah, you have a good brother here.

" Can Mama ask something ? How you know about - "

" Papa Taewoo always talk about that in his pray. He said he regret with what happened " Yejun sat beside me. I really adore with this kids. After what happened, he still smile.