Sound of the Sins |H.s

XX

Later that day

I closed the window after watering the plants and drew the curtains, switching the light on.

I plopped onto my bed, putting the water spray down and taking off my pull over and sighing. My body smelled and I knew I needed to shower but then when I was about to stand up to grab my towel my eyes caught a glimpse of the cases in the open drawer of my desk. Doubt clouded my mind as I contemplated whether to read them or not. I was feeling half tired and half curious but the source of curiosity in me was somehow making itself stronger as I felt myself stand up automatically, grabbing the cases that felt like iron against my magnetic hand.

This kind of felt good. Having a case to observe and think about all day. After studying those years, these things make you feel like that your efforts hadn't been in vain, and maybe you'll help help the world by the things you do. Just like how detectives get excited about their cases. Yeah that kind of feeling.

Everyone deserves to be helped and it warms my heart that I can be able to do so.

I jumped on my bed with the papers in my hand, my mind racing with different thoughts as I was reminded of Harry's case, the papers feeling much heavier than before as if the words written in them had suddenly caused an effect on me. Are you sure? I couldn't help but feel like they wanted me to stop but nevertheless, I opened the first one, just wanting to get it over with. I was just being ridiculous.

I kind of expected to be faced with Harry's case, just like in movies, but obviously it wasn't Harry's so it took me about five minutes or so to find his. I wanted to read his first cause I knew I won't get to finish all of them so better finish his first and get the stress off my chest sooner. Why was I stressed? Or scared? I couldn't tell. Maybe scared of what I was going to face.

And a little part of me hoped that Harry didn't really have a worrisome problem. I'm still not sure if he's guilty or what, if he turns out to have a mental disorder as well I don't know how I will be able to handle that cause I admit I feel a little attached to him. Helping one person is more valuable than struggling with different cases at once.

Specially after all the efforts I've put into getting there. That'd mean all of it has been in vain and I'll have a battle inside my mind that I'm not really sure I can survive.

I decided that I needed to stop overthinking and just face my problems already. Not my problems but whatever. So l took a breath and started reading every detail properly.

When the personal stuff like his name or birth date or etc was finished I moved my eyes to the next part.

Doctor B. Weaver' Diagnoses

After the many sessions I've had with Harry Edward Styles, I must admit he's one of my many special patients. Very rare symptoms that lead me to reading and searching everywhere to finally find a way to treat him. Find actually what mental disorder he's suffering from. I must admit it was a hard work, as I'll explain later the symptoms made it all harder. But now after my observations I can almost confidently announce that I've figured out that Harry is suffering from Depersonalization disorder. The most difficult part was to choose between the named disorder, and another one that confused me so much for their very similar symptoms. Dissociative identity disorder. The mentioned disorders are both from the same group, called Dissociative Disorders that made the decision harder. But the following information shows exactly why I think the possibility of existence of the first mentioned disorder is much more.

According to the sessions and information I've gathered after a long time, these are the things I've noticed and taken note of, that really triggered me to doubt him for having the mentioned problem.