It's Not Perfect, It's Love - Prinxiety

Anxiety

~Anxiety's POV~

I wake up confused. What hap-

Wait

Everything that happened comes rushing back. I feel tears start to well up in my eyes and I curl up my knees to my chest. I wrap my blanket around myself in an attempt to block out my thoughts but it doesn't work.

I knew they didn't like me. Why would they? It's not like I give them any reason to. Their right about me. All I do is hurt Thomas. I shouldn't be surprised that he tried to get rid of me. Im a disorder. I don't belong here. There's just one thing that I don't understand. I know Thomas tried to get rid of me so why am I still here? Maybe it didn't work or he didn't take enough.

I cry even more, drawing in shakey, ridgid breaths. I try to control my breathing but I can't seem to focus on it with all these voices in my head.

I look around my room in an attempt to distract myself from all these thoughts and my eyes land on my guitar. I shakily pick it up and strum a chord. I allow my hands to stop shaking a bit and start to play a song.

"Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what its like to be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life

Do you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what its like
What its like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don't know what its like
What its like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life"

I sing along with the song and when I'm done I feel calmer. Of course, being the literal embodiment of anxiety, I know that calmness usually doesn't last. I allow myself to fall into a light sleep before the thoughts come back.