Kids From Yesterday -MCR killjoy fanfic

Chapter 13

My eyelids futtered open,  morning sunlight shining down upon my face,  warming my cheeks.

I sighed. Not a wink of sleep came to me last night.  I finally got a half an hour in,  but the sun was out now,  signalling that it was time to get up.

I looked up towards Party,  to see a set of two gorgeous hazel eyes gazing into mine.

I sat up,  my eyes widening.  "Your up."  I whispered stunned.

He sighed,  resting his hand over his face,  nodding.

I was up the entire night,  keeping a close eye on him.  Making sure the steady rise and fall of his chest remained constant.

He pulled his hand away,  gazing up at me again.  His stunning eyes filled with sadness and grief.

I slowly brought my face down to his, softly pressing my lips onto his.

He lifted his face closer,  closing the space.

I sighed against his lips as I leaned in closer,  gently placing my hand over his cheek.

But he broke away,  gently pushing me away as he got up.

I looked up at him confused,  the butterflies settling as my heart sunk.

"What's wrong?"  I whispered.

He sighed,  running a hand through his hair.

"You don't have to kiss me... or say you love me,  if it isn't true.  I know you don't."  He answered,  a saddened frown playing on his lips.

Words couldn't form on my tongue. 

I did love him.. I think I loved him? 

The way he made me feel.. the way my heart fluttered when his eyes met mine.  The way when he touched me I felt alive,  the butterflies that erupted within me when our lips touched.  Isn't that love?

No.  Love was more.  And I knew Party was more than that to me.

He was a part of me.

Whenever I saw him.. laying there unconcious.. a part of me broke.

"Party I-"

He suddenly looked up at me,  piercing me with his daggered hazel eyes.  Those beautiful eyes.

"Damn it I thought you had died!  I thought I would never see you again!"

He stood up from the bed.  "Nebula I was heart broken!  You don't love me!  No one does.  I'm a fucking waste of space.  I'm no good to anybody.  All I did was sit and watch you as you slept.. so beautifully.  It was awful.  You just wouldn't wake up!

"Then when you did,  it dawned on me.  You don't love me.. you never did.  How could you?"  He shook his head.

I stood up to my feet, stomping over to him.

"I do love you Party!  Goddamn I love you!  Do you realize the feelings you stir up inside me?  The way when you look at me I die inside.  I want you Party.. I want you so bad.  I need you."

Suddenly my body was being pushed backwards,  slamming into the wall behind me.

A pair of warm intense lips were pressed against mine,  suffocating me.

His hands pressed my waist against the wall,  as his body pinned me.

I desperately reached for his hair as I pulled him closer,  falling into the kiss.

He barely pulled away,  tears dripping down his cheeks.

"If you really love me.. show me."  He breathed against my lips.

I bit my lip as I held back a grin,  reached up to his face.

I grasped his face in my hands,  pressing my lips desperetely against his,  while pressing my body onto him.

He sighed contently as he gripped my hips,  pressing me tighter onto him.

I moved my hands away from his face,  snaking them around his shoulders,  bringing his face closer onto mine.

He moaned softly as I pressed my hips against him,  the butterflies coming back to life.

Be broke away from the kiss,  trailing kisses across my cheek,  getting softer as he made his way lower.

He lowered to my collar bone,  gently sinking his teeth against my skin,  taking the breath out of me.

He lifted his face back up to mine,  placing a feathery kiss on my lips,  pure pleasure melting into the kiss.

"I love you too Nebula."