Facing the Dragons

Consumed from the Inside Out

It's eating at me.

Gnawing, Chewing, then finally digesting

All self love

All the self esteem I once held.

This feeling,

Consuming me.

Starting with my mind,

then flowing to my heart,

eventually consuming my being.

From my head to my toes.

The only colour I see?

Green.

Ironically the colour of life.

but it's blinding me,

by controlling my ambition,

to be THE best in life.

It's hiding the vivid colours of the Earth

and all other life forms.

Especially colourful you.

My eyesight is tainted.

I can't see straight no more.

I feel like a swinging door,

Pushing forward,

Pulling backward.

I'm on automatic 'cause I'm blinded.

Blinded by this dragon-like need

this consuming, fiery need

this stupid, twisted want

To be better than you

To shine brighter than you

To run faster than you

To be loved more than you

To be more beautiful than you

To beat you.

To make you jealous.

of me.

for once.

I want to make you feel this.

this all consuming feeling from the inside

OUT.

a/n

so another one on jealousy... I wrote this one awhile ago but still after "wishing I was you" because I felt that it would be more relatable to people of all ages. Whereas "wishing I was you" is mainly for teenage girls... Idk just my opinion :P

02/16/14