back to your love; van mccann

why can't this feel the same

chapter eleven

van

after a few days of being cooped up in my flat, i finally decide to answer the constant ringing from my phone.

"hello?" i cough out, staying under the covers on my bed.

"van? i need you to meet us at the label, okay? they're willing to give us another chance." larry hurriedly says into the phone, and i groan.

"do i really have to? why can't you and the lads deal with it this time?" i say, starting to get up anyway because i know he won't let me get out of it.

"you're the lead singer of the band, you need to be there. you've got an hour." larry says and hangs up the phone, causing me to sigh before throwing my phone to the bed and getting up to get cleaned up.

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"oh thank God, you're here." benji says as i walk into the lobby five minutes before whatever we're doing starts, seeing the rest of them all waiting nervously in the room.

"yeah, let's get on with it shall we." i mumble, taking off my sunglasses and being called in with the rest of the lads a few minutes after.

"so, van.. do you care on sharing why you decided to randomly leave in the middle of a mostly sold out tour?" one of the producers, kelly, asks and i sigh.

"no, i don't feel like explaining really." i says blankly, earning several glares my way.

"van!" bob whisper yells, swatting me on the arm and then turning to the producers in front of us.

"he went through quite a bit when we were gone.. he couldn't take it anymore and had to go." bob says, explaining for me and i roll my eyes.

"is this correct, van?" kelly asks and i shrug, nodding to tell her yes.

"now.. we've had to give a lot of refunds obviously, so that means you all won't be getting paid, except for the shows you already did. so.. we have a few festival openings, and european dates that we'd be willing to book you in for. as long as van doesn't leave again. if something like this happens again, you're off the label." she says mechanically and i sigh, watching the rest of the lads thank her repeatedly.

i nod and give a halfhearted thanks before walking out of the room before the guys can.

"looks like we're heading out on the 20th." larry says and i scoff, stopping to gape at him, causing the others to stop suddenly as well.

"that's in 3 fucking days!" i say a little bit too loud, earning a few stares.

"van, do you want this band or not? we're doing this for you too, you know. i know you'd be devastated if they let us off the label." larry says and i sigh.

"we haven't had rehearsal time or anything! plus i've got shit to do." i say, earning a scoff from bondy, causing me to snap my head to look at him.

"you've got shit to do? more like just moping around because your girl isn't loyal." he says, rolling his eyes and i raise my eyebrows.

"what the fuck? do you want me to hit you?" i raise my voice even more and larry immediately grabs me by the arm, leading me out of the building.

"let me go, lad!" i say agitated, snatching my arm out of his grip as we get outside, heading the opposite way from them as i light up a cigarette.

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