The Grass Isn't Greener On The Other Side

Chapter Eight

*one month and a half later*

I received a phone call from Titus. He says,"Hey, I'm just calling so we can finish our talk." He happens to call me while I'm over at Tanielle and Edrea's house. Dessa was there too; he sounded like he wanted me to repeat myself that night at the bowling alley. I finally respond,"What else do we need to talk about I've said everything I need to say so...?"

He sounds as if he is annoyed and is even coming off as aggressive and angry."Well, I'm sorry..." he continues to talk but at this point in time I'm done with him his apology was just not acceptable I stopped listening. You could hear he was upset. Once he was done talking I told him." We can't be friends anymore don't call me, text me, nothing I can't be friends with someone I love as more than just a friend that's it." He yells,"Fine."

Then I hear a dial tone he just hung up on me. Now my God sisters are sitting there with eyes filled with curiosity all of them asking the same question at once,"WHAT DID HE SAY!?"

It seemed as though they could tell frustration had taken over my face. Calmly explaining with all my might saying,"He wanted to continue our conversation from the bowling alley and then he got mad and hung up." They turn to look at one another puzzled by the brief information no word were exchanged for a few more moments.

Dessa as usual one of the first ones to speak,"I heard you say you can't be friends with someone you love?" Looking at her just shaking my head up and down agreeing with the statement she just said. Edrea and Tanielle yet to say anything continued to just look.

Quickly changing the subject to Tanielle seems as though her and Morris hit it off. A huge joker like smile came across her face she even blushed a little. Morris was a nice guy I knew him before the girls did but it was there first time meeting him. He is about 5'10 dark chocolate smooth milky like skin. Warm dark brown eyes and a cleaned low cut all over beard. Somewhat pink plump lips and pretty straight white teeth always dressed to perfection.

We talked a little more till I couldn't stand to be around anyone any longer I was ready to put all of that behind me and move forward with my life. Well as best as things would go anyways.

About a couple of days after thanksgiving my phone starts to ring and it's Dessa. Picking up all I hear is,"Girl guess who called my dad?" "Who." I replied "TITUS!" Confusion, anger, as well as frustration took over. Trying to mask my voice from the anger that was impending."Why would he be calling your dad." "Well you see he happens to know him and his entire family apparently his parents grew up with my dad."she says and continues,"I overheard him telling my dad that him and Cassie broke up and that he thinks he messed things up with you and he isn't sure how to fix it. Since you don't want anything to do with him."
It took me a few moments to gather my thoughts but since I was done with him and black men first thoughts came to mind f*** him.

Once you're cut off doesn't matter if I use to love you or not I will not allow you to play me like a fool. His choice should've been made easy I left so you had no other choice but to pick her. Guess he wanted me to stay his friend whilst he flaunted his happiness and engagement in my face no sir not on me you will not.

"AMIAH!?", screams Dessa through the phone shaking me from my thoughts."Did you hear what I just said?"
"Yes, I hear you go ahead finish what you were saying."
"So my dad gave him some advice but I couldn't hear the rest of what he was saying so that's all I know."
"Well Dessa I'm glad you called but this thing is over and he is history a bunch of wasted time and five years of my life of loving him I can't get back so I will not spend another minute concerned about him nor his relationship."
"You sure we just want you to be ok you deserve love Amiah and what he did by not telling you he was engaged when you seem him in July was wrong. Yet he waits till October when you find out whilst everyone else at the conference seemed to know and be happy about it. Was all wrong I believe my dad told him he was wrong for not telling you."
"Thank you Dessa but I need to go I have a few things that need to get done talk to you later love, bye"
"Bye", Dessa says and we hang up the phone.

My feelings got the best of me after that conversation. Eyes stinging with the salty tears allowing myself to cry and from that day on swearing never to cry again for any reason. My heart has become harder than a rock. Wiping my face and pulling myself together I got up walked into the bathroom took a hot shower got out grabbed my favorite lotion from bath and body works velvet sugar. Once I was done put on my spongebob pajamas and went downstairs because I was hungry and wanted to see what my mom had cooked.
"Hey Mom"
"Hey honey bun",says my mom.
"How was your trip I've been meaning to ask you about it, did you all have fun, learn anything?"
"It was great, yes, and a little bit." Quickly changing the subject."What did you cook?"
"Oh your favorite mash potatoes, green beans, and meatloaf." Yes my mom is so A-1 for that she had no idea how much I wanted to eat my life away. After that whole fiasco it had gotten harder and harder to fight depression, anxiety, and self esteem issues.

Flashing my mom a hearty cheeky smile fixed myself a fat plate and sat down with my mom watching swamp people on tv. After eating it was about 930 and I definitely needed to get in the bed it was going to be a rough life ahead.