The Grass Isn't Greener On The Other Side

Chapter Ten

On my way home from that steamy and pleasurable date. I'm driving and was in such a daze found it hard to stay focused on the road. Which made me drive much faster than normal knowing I'm in a dazed state of mind is dangerous so mustering up what little focus I could made it home and changed hit the bed immediately.

Woke up the next day to a few text messages from Tim asking if I had made it home and that he had a great time last night and he had a question. I respond ,"yes I made it home thanks for asking. Sorry about that I went to sleep last night and I had a wonderful time too. What's your question."

Tim,"Did you want to suck my cock last night in the car?"

Me:"What kind of question is that no I did not."

Tim,"my bad I just thought you did the way you kept looking at me and my cock made me wonder."

Me:"No, but whatever I will talk to you later."

No response from him after that in my head I was now confused it had been over seven years since having sexual intercourse with anybody lots of dates and make out sessions but none went past that point. Shaking the thoughts from what just happened made my way downstairs.

My mom had made breakfast greeted her with a good morning grabbed a plate ate and I was out the door. Headed to pick up Tanielle,Dessa,and Edrea for a little girl time out in Portland. On my way to pick them up No Air by Jordan Sparks and Chris brown started playing through the speakers. Phone was on a shuffle mix and I guess it was time for a throwback.

Me singing at the top of my lungs "Tell me how, do you expect me to live alone with just me when my world revolves around you it's so hard for me to breathe." Turning down the music I call for the girls to come outside. You could absolutely tell I was glowing and for the first time in months feelings were becoming my friend again. Hatred had oozed from my heart and I had become a completely careless and a wicked person.

The girls hop in the car and of course the first thing they want to know is how did my date with Tim go. The brightest smile came across my face thinking about this handsome man. Despite the text messages from that morning. I told the girls everything was perfect. He was such a gentleman and we even made out in my car.

Edrea," Is he a good kisser?" Laughing really hard because they know me so well I can't stand a man who can't kiss.

"Yes Edrea, he is by far the best kisser I've ever kissed and would definitely love to kiss him more." Of course I left out the details of the things that were said through texts. Knowing those were red flags ignoring those because I liked him and could definitely spend lots of time with him.

*fast forward 3 months it's now May*

Back in March my dad finds out he lost his high paying job. Which means that he has to try and find another high paying job because my mom isn't working. That didn't happen he got another job but it was only able to pay the mortgage so they decided they were going to sale the house and move to Georgia. They leave and I stayed not in the house of course but moved out on my own in a one bedroom apartment.

Now I'm all alone with just friends while my family is across the other side of the world. Didn't bother me one bit I was making my own money anyways, own car, and could afford to live on my own so I did.

This is when things really turned insane for the next two years my life spirals out of control.

Tim goes missing in action I didn't hear from him after about a week of talking in February. This drove me insane playing the date over and over again in my head like what did I say wrong what did I do wrong. One day I had had enough of the what did I do it was time to find out. A good friend of mines named Malaysia were hanging out talking about Tim of course. She says,"Call him." Scrunching up my nose and lips to look at her crazy like me call him. She goes on to say,"Only way to know why he disappeared is to ask what's the worst that can happen he doesn't answer the phone so what nothing to lose right?" Malaysia was right so hitting the talk button on my steering wheel I command the car to call Tim. The phone rings and rings at each ring my heart paused oh my he picked up."Hello?" "Hey, what are you doing?"
Tim."Just siting here watching tv why?"
"Well I was calling because I want you and you went missing and I wanted to know why." He pauses and takes in a deep breath," We don't want the same things and I'm looking for just friends."
Thinking of a quick answer I said,"I want you so we can be friends sure let's do it."
A brief moment of silence he says,"alright well I got to go will talk to you later."
"Ok...bye"
"Bye" he hangs up the phone. A breath of fresh air came over me but Malaysia wasn't too sure if I should do that she knew I liked him as more than just a friend. Yet she said she would support me either way.

*Sometime in June*

Tim and I decided to go ahead and be friends with benefits. My thinking was I would use my body to get him to change his mind and be in a relationship with me and me only. He would see how great I am and how supportive I could be. Tim texts me his address and we had talked about rather or not was I on birth control which I wasn't but had planned on getting on in the weeks to come. He was under the impression that I was already on the pill and we agreed to be exclusive so he wouldn't have sex with anyone else nor would I.

He was only the second person in seven years I would allow to enjoy the pleasures of my vagina. Taking a shower and getting out making sure everything was clean and perfect. Picked out the fragrance for the night going with Twilight woods from bath and body works.

On the drive over nerves almost got the best of me but turning on some music. To get myself in the mood and shake the nerves I picked out Body Party by Ciara. "

My body is your party baby...nobody's invited but ya baby I can do it slow now tell me what you want"

My phone rang interrupting my song. It was Tim,"Hey are you almost here?"
"Yeah I'm pulling around the corner now." Tim,"Okay cool pull under the tree next to the outside air conditioning unit and the door is open."
"Got it pulling in the spot now k bye." Hanging up the phone gathering my inner freak like Ciara says in her song. Finally ready to have a body party I put my heels on and pull my jacket closer to my body it's really chilly outside. Supposed to be spring but it still feels like winter.

*Hello, please comment vote say something let me know what you think. I'm hoping to have this whole entire book completed within the next two months. Somewhere in between 30 to 40 chapters or I may make the chapters longer. Thanks everyone blessings on blessings have a great day. In the process of writing the next chapter we will see how that goes. If nobody comments I won't update it'll be a waste of time if I don't know if anyone is enjoying it.*