Not So Different

i thought i said no

I went through the whole day in a stand off mood so when I left I was beyond happy I walked and enjoyed the sun. I should have known better than to walk or should have gotten some hearing aids.

I walked home and the nanny was at the door with aurora and carter." Hi babies! Mommy's home angels!" I smiled widely and walked towards them. "Your dismissed." I tell her with a stoic nod. She nodded and left. I carried carter and aurora to the living room to watch a movie. I put on the little mermaid and ran to the kitchen to get some snacks for me and little fruits that I cut into tiny pieces so they could eat them. There was a knock at the door and I shook my head. Nanny must have left something I guess." Just come in the doors open!" I yelled as I ran to the living room hearing carter whine.

"Sure thing." I froze at the voice." What are you doing in my house!" I yelled trying to shield carter and aurora from view but unsuccessfully as aurora decide that was the moment to start crawling on the couch." You just invited me in?" He said slowly as I glared at him.

"No I did not." I stared straight in his eyes trying to divert his attention from my kids.

"Yes you did just now." I thought back on it and scoffed. I'm a complete idiot.

"I mean invite you over to my house I never said you could come over and I thought you were someone else not you." I said and stared at him he stared back ." We need to work on the project." I just nodded." Okay I'll start I got our packets from the teacher."

"Sure but let's work in the kitchen its straight ahead through that door I just have to grab something real quick." He nodded and walked off as I ran in the den and pressed play on the movie this should distract them long enough to get rid of him. I watched as aurora leaned on carter as they sucked their bottles that I had filled with 3/4 water and 1/4 apple juice. I kissed their foreheads before walking out." Mommy has to do some work but ill be right back." I closed the door and rushed to the kitchen before sitting besides Alex.

Wedding day was written in fancy words. I saw the questions and laughed. I remember the day me and Carter planned our future together.

Flashback

Carter was laying back in his bed and I was cuddled into his side as he interlocked our hands I smiled at him as he kissed my head.

"Do you ever think about our future? You know together?" He asked me as he looked down at me.

"I mean sometimes yeah I do." I said nonchalantly.

"Ok how about when we get married what do you want?" My eyes widened and I got up on my arm." Wow you really have been thinking about this." He nodded his head at me."well yeah I mean your it your all I need your my now and your my future too there no one else after you so what do you want?" I smiled so hard it almost hurt.

"Well something by the ocean. A dress that reminds me of the waves crashing against the sand. I want blue table settings instead of white ones shells on the tabled and flower girls that throw white petals their dress blue I want white roses and blue carnations. And forget me nots so we never forget that day." He pulled chin up and looked in my eyes." I would never forget that day not when I'd finally be with the most beautiful person on this earth."

Flashback end

I felt my eyes get wattery all of a sudden and Alex was saying I should just fill out my side so we could finish faster and he wouldn't have to see me again for the next few days. I jumped out of my seat quickly as a tear streamed down my face." Do you want something to drink?" I walked over to the sink and rinsed out some cups to pour some lemonade and wiped my face discretely.

"I thought you wanted to just finish this so I could leave?" I shrug my shoulders," Well yeah but are you thirsty or not give me a break I'm trying to be civil
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He raised his hands in mock surrender." Yeah some water maybe." He told me as he wrote down some things on the paper not even bothering to look up.

I was bringing the glass to him when a whine was heard from across the room I tensed and froze for a second." I think I left the TV on I'll be back." I ran out the room straight towards the kids and started to hush them down. They eased back into a comfortable silence as I went back to the kitchen where I left Alex sitting all alone. He was sitting there tapping his pencil on the table mindlessly." Let's just finish this I have stuff to do." I said as I took my seat at the edge. He scoffed at that.

"What? Now you have an issue with that too?" I glared at him and he shrugged." What could you possibly have to do that is more important than this project? Do you have a servant to reprimand? A butler because you had to open the door instead of him? Or maybe a footmen?" He said mockingly.

"Leave." I said suddenly angry ." did I just hurt the poor princess feelings?" He snarled at me." Leave! Leave right now!" I grabbed his things and started to push him out the door.

"Your the one who invited me over!" He protested as he walked out the threshold.

I just shook my head." I could've sworn, I thought I said no!" With that I slammed the door and locked it then I went and sat with my beautiful children to watch a movie

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