Happier With You

Dad?

The Skype ringtone filled your hotel room. Ben sat next to you in bed, nervously looking at how he looked from the waist up. You shifted your gaze to see his troubled state.

You turned the screen to just you so Ben could feel a bit more comfortable. "Mummy!" Two voices exclaimed from the screen. "My loves, I miss you so much," you completely ignored Ben at your side and talked to your kids. "We miss you too mummy," they took turns to kiss the screen.

"When are you coming back mummy?" Angelo asked. "She can't come back yet, she's working remember," James answered his brother's question. "Oh yeah," Angelo's sweet voice spoke.

"Did you meet any superheroes today?" James excitedly asked. "Yes I did. I met Thor today, Hulk, Black Widow, and someone else.." you trailed off to keep them on their toes. "Who?" They anxiously asked.

You turned your laptop for Ben to now be in view. They both immediately gasped, their eyes went wide open and their motions stopped. Behind your kids were your parents, they weren't pleased to see Ben in the same room as you, especially sitting on the same bed.

"Hi," Ben waved at the screen, he didn't know if it was a good or bad reaction. "Loves say something," you giggled at your boys. "You're Doctor Strange! Mummy look it's Doctor Strange!" James bounced up and down on his seat.

"Do you know about me?" Ben curiously asked. "You're my favorite superhero!" James said with a wide smile. "No you're my favorite!" Angelo piped in. You could see Ben's hand shake with excitement.

His eyes began to tear up as did yours. "Why do you speak differently?" James head turned slightly as he asked the question. "Erm, w-well," Ben began to stutter. "It's his disguise, he can't let the bad ones know he's doctor strange," you chimed in helping Ben. There was a silent 'oh' heard from one of the boys.

You checked the time on your laptop, "It's bedtime my loves." They whined, but you gave them a stern look. "Alright," Angelo slumped his shoulders, "Goodnight mummy, I love you."

"No, I love you more!" James said. "No, I do," Angelo responded back. It went on for a few seconds. "James, Angelo," you caught their attention, "you both love me equally as much as I love the both of you equally." They smiled and took turns to kiss the screen again.

They diverted their attention to Ben, "Bye Doctor Strange." "Hm, how about you call me da–" You cleared your throats and hit his arm with your elbow, "Ben, call him Ben. Or Benny."

They waved at him and called him by his name. "I'll be there in a minute sweeties I need to talk to your mum," their grandma stayed behind as your dad accompanied them to get ready.

"They've been lovely my dear, don't you worry. I presume you've still got a few days until you come back, am I right?" She couldn't see Ben on the screen. "Yeah, we still have a few pages to go over and I'll be heading home," you shifted making Benedict visible on the screen.

Her expression turned sour. "Hello Mrs. L/n," Ben timidly said. "Ben," your mum only dictated his name. "I can imagine you might be irritated with me because of what happened a few years ago.. and I'm truly sorry for that. I'll make it up for leaving," Ben had a sincere tone.

"Benedict, you can't make up for it. She did fine without you during the pregnancy, she will be better than fine without you these years. Anyways, you've got a family of your own to take care of," your mum crossed her arms.

"Wait, you knew about his marriage and didn't tell me?" You were perplexed. "I'm sorry honey, I was just trying to protect you. I didn't want to break your heart again. It was during those times where you were still.. thinking," her choice of words became confusing to Benedict.

"Oh., okay. I'm glad you kept it a secret. Thank you mum, we'll talk later," you ended the Skype video call.

"Did your mum insinuate you were thinking of aborting our children?" Ben roughly asked. You gaped your mouth at him, "Of course not, they're my children. I couldn't do such thing."

"Your mum has always been confusing, now that she's pissed with me she's even more confusing," he sighed. You knew exactly what she was talking about, "It's really nothing important." He eyed you, "Obviously it is if she hid my marriage from you."

"It really isn't, I'm over it now. Those thoughts got out of my mind the second I held onto James and Angelo in my arms," you smiled at the memory. He rested his back for a second then gazed your direction, "You were still in love with me..?"

You let out a downhearted chuckle, "Yeah.. but as I said gone the second I had my babies." He placed one hand on top of yours, "Why couldn't I tell them to call me dad?"

"You've got to be amazingly high off your balls if you really thought I was going to let my twins know about their father over a Skype call. I called for you to see them, not so they know about their missing dad," you scoffed. He gulped, "I'm sorry.. and I don't just mean because of the call, I'm talking about everything. Since the past 5 years."

Your rested your head on his shoulder, the both of you stared straight at the black tv. "I'm sorry as well. I should've never said such horrible things," you closed your eyes and let tranquility overcome you.

"You only spoke the truth, I couldn't understand why other men had to touch you the way I did in our room. I was a very jealous boyfriend," he caressed the back of your palm with his thumb.

You gazed up to see his gorgeous face, his eyes were between a blue and green color. The sunshine making them have a special glow to them. He licked his bottom lip and you nipped at yours.

"You should go," you softly whispered. He didn't move, neither did you. There was a special crave the both of you desired. He wanted to taste your plummy lips and you wanted to rush your hand through his growing curls. You wanted to feel the heat of his breath as it brushed against your bare skin. He craved for your touch, for your soft fingers to skim through his body as they used to. You were in much necessity of having him by your side again.

"If you don't leave this room right now I will try to kiss you. I'm not that type of person and I know you what your reaction will be, please," you could feel his breath on your lips. He retreated his head, his Adam's apple moved up and down.

It would take less than a second to pull him close, let his lips dance with yours all over again. You held onto an invisible force to keep this desire buried. You felt a dent next to you as he lifted his body off the mattress.

You curled up into a ball with your eyes closed. The door to your hotel opened then closed. There was a tension inclosed in your muscles, his presence made you have the urge to hold yourself back. "Not anymore, you're not in love with him," you said to yourself.

"Not since you held your kids, he's gone.. forever. You can't love him and he won't ever love you back," you talked to yourself. You roughly swallowed and opened your eyes to reveal hidden tears. A staggered sigh exited your mouth as you laid on your bed.