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Chapter 16: Am I Crazy?

Tears streaming down my face. 

Mother walking in. 

Yelling. 

Yanking the blade away.

Calling me crazy.

Am I?

I regretted it. When mom came in my and found me, she took me to a mental hospital.
Dr. Vandor put me in a room. White room. Attaches boxes to my hands and left.
That is how I ended up here. 

Depressed.

In a small room with foam as walls. 

I had to wait there for an hour or two, before the doctor came in and took me to a different room.
I entered the room wondering. Dr. Vandor opened the door and she moved to the side to let me in.
There were a few girls sitting on the carpet lightly talking.

I stood there not knowing what to do until the doctor introduced me to Alondra.

 Alondra has dark features. Skin. Hair. Except her eyes which looked a pale hazel.
I sat down next to her and looked at the blue carpet.

"Hi" Alondra said so softly I almost didn't hear her.

"Hi" I replied back looking at her.

"I know you ended up in here for a reason, cause I did. Why did you?" Sam looked at me with her big hazel eyes.

I didn't reply. Just looked at her. 

"Omg sorry. I just asked you that and don't know the basics about you. What's your name?"

"Jenny."

"Cool. Im Alondra, but you already knew that. So this probably around the same age as you." Alondra seemed kinda peppy fro someone who is in "mental" hospital.

"I shall tell you my story and you can tell me yours." Her eyes turned cold.

"Okay."

Alondra began her story of how long she was here and why. 

"I've been here for about a year." A YEAR. My eyes widen at that statement. She noticed. "Yeah, I know I must be crazy to have stayed here for so long, but you know." Not really. Whatever.

( Trigger warning from this point down: suicide) 

She continued. "So basically I regret everything i did. I was depressed. For a long time. I wanted to kill myself. I cut, anywhere on my body that I could hide. My mom died in a car accident  and my dad was  always working, but when he was home, he was drunk and hit me.. My boyfriend cheated on me with my supposedly best friend. I was bullied, no one helped me. My 'friends' weren't there for me. So I basically gave up." She gave a dry laugh.

 Alondra took a deep breath. I could tell she was getting emotional. I felt for her. Alondra was going through the same things as me. Almost. But close.

She looked back at the ground while i just stared at her black hair.

"Then one day I had enough. I decided  I was going to kill myself. So I went to a building and jumped. Tried to. Someone saw me and grabbed me from behind. I never found out who it was 'cause I blacked out."

I got up and hugged her and she hugged me back.

"Its okay." 

We let go of each other and smiled. A tear went down my cheek.

"So whats your story." She asked

I told her.

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How did you like Alondra?

Talk to a friend if you are going through this. Or just find someone, anyone to talk to.