The Fighter Girl

Chapter 18

Scarlet's POV

Resting on the couch the image of 'the damned' lingers. The looks on everyone's faces told me they want to book it the hell out of here. I know Isabella said that the creature was not an angel nor a demon but I'm pretty sure it's more on the demon side. It made this low humming noise and is just intimidating with just one look.

I've lead Cole to believe that he will be fighting with me in the war, I can't have that though. It would be painful if his life was taken in the war. He should be able to enjoy his life, after all this war wouldn't be happening if I existed. No ones life would be on the line if it wasn't for me.

At this point I feel drained mentally and physically. I've been training late into the night and early in the morning because I don't want to have causalities on my side. Thoughts have been flying in and out of my head and feel confused and just sad.

'If I was never born my parents would still be alive,' my own thoughts are killing me. 'My brother wouldn't have to worry about his life if it weren't for me,' my thoughts are drowning me. 'Alex would still have his mate, it's all my fault,' my thoughts are like a noose around my neck.

It's like I'm being held underwater, struggling to breath. Everyone at the surface don't seem to notice me drowning though, they all pass by. I'm drowning but no one sees.

Burying my face in the couch pillow I will myself to go to sleep. I can't win a battle if I'm falling apart, right? The darkness that consumes is fully welcomed and I succumb to sleep.

Why couldn't I be a normal teenager?

"Scarlet, I hope you know that we all love you," I hear Noah say. Opening my eyes I notice Noah sitting in front of me and that it is dark outside. Noah gives me a sad smile.

"What's that all about," I ask with a light laugh.

"I know that you blame yourself and I watch you practice every night. You can't blame yourself for this because Scarlet it's not your fault. You might not think it, but you also have a family. Your family includes me, Cole, and Alex, we're here for you and will always be. What happened in the past is in the past, your parents died protecting you because they wanted to, they wanted their baby girl, that they loved, to live. They didn't have to protect you but they did. Everyone can choose their battles, your parents chose theirs and you're choosing yours. And you damn well know that this battle you chose, I chose it too, along with Alex and the rest. Don't think you're forcing anyone because you're not, everyone is here on their own free will," Noah's voice cracks slightly and tears blur my vision. I feel so guilty for feeling how I feel.

"I'm sorry," I cry out and wrap my arms around Noah. The floor creaks and I smell both Alex and Cole. Turning to them while looking like a ball you would describe as a crying mess, I launch myself at them. "I'm sorry," I repeat.

"We're sorry because we seen you hurting but we didn't say anything," Alex voice cracks. Looking into his eyes with my tear filled ones I notice tears popping up.

"We didn't know what to say to make you feel better either so we had Noah help, and he seems to have did a good job. I love you sis," Cole's voice cracks like Alex's did. Fat tears roll down his cheek and soon Noah is crying too.

We end up in a big group hug, crying and just a complete mess, I wouldn't exchange this moment right here for anything though.
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I've updated, finally! This has been a very hectic week for me. The reason I didn't update yesterday was due to my mom throwing my nephews birthday at my house. My room was filled with my little cousins and I had to watch them and it was a complete mess. My once clean/neat looking room became similar to where a tornado landed.

I know this is short and the next chapter is also going to be short so sorry in advance. I just want to put in Isaiah's POV in a chapter, which is the next chapter.

Quote:
Behind every beautiful smile is a story that you will never understand.
-Unknown