Let Me In [YOONMIN]

One

Yoongi's POV

A silent night leads to many thoughts. Thoughts about the world, universe, life and death and even love.
It sucks when you don't have anyone to talk to about those things with.

Being in college was lonely for me most of the time. I focused more on my work, which was music and didn't attend any parties or social events. I liked to spend my free time resting. I didn't even have a roommate because I knew how annoying they would most likely get so I requested to be alone.

My dorm still had two twin beds but I put all my shit on the one that wasn't used.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't want someone to love, but I had no idea how to open up and let someone in my life. I wouldn't consider dating anyone in my college because of how immature they all were.

I wasn't completely anti social though, I had and still have a few good friends and they've been good to me ever since I met them. They understand that I'm not that type to hang out much and party so they sometimes come to my dorm to watch a movie or talk or sometimes we all would take naps.

Seokjin, Namjoon and Hoseok are the best kind of guys you could find but I'd never fall for any of them.
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I'm not even close to being straight. The guys are pretty straight from what they told me but some of them say they wouldn't mind experiencing and trying out more things, what ever that means.

One afternoon the boys decided to come to my dorm, they hadn't been in a few days so I was happy to hang out with them and leave the thoughts for later.

"Tomorrow the freshman are coming in." Namjoon reminded me as he handed me a can of soda before sitting down beside me on the couch.

"Ugh, don't even start. The last thing I want is a bunch of little college kid wannabes running around and asking me questions all damn day." I said and rolled my eyes after I took the soda from Namjoon's hand.
"Thank you."

"Hey, you were there once." Jin said. He was sitting next to Namjoon.

"Actually, I wasn't. I never asked anyone a question, I figured it out all on my own." I said triumphantly and took a sip from the can.

"Congratulations." Hoseok said sarcastically and laughed.

"Oh shut up."

"Seriously, you need to get out there Yoongi. Find someone that likes music or what ever the hell else you like. You're attractive, you're a bitch sometimes but I think you can make up for it with other things." Hoseok said again, his brows raised.

"Why are you always so dirty minded?!" I said and pushed him while the others were chuckling.

"He's right though, when will you let anyone in your life? Maybe you'll find a cute freshman tomorrow."

"No, I'll never date a freshman. I'm a junior, and I have plans for the future and they'll be stuck in this college while I'm out there."

"Never say never. This isn't high school Yoongi. It's different now, everyone has more freedom, you know that." Namjoon said making me think about it.

"Eh, I don't know. Whatever, it doesn't matter. I don't really care."

But I actually did care. I've never been in an actual relationship before, I've only fucked people and it honestly meant nothing to me. I want to be with someone and do things with them but I want to feel more than just lust. I want to feel love.

The next day came, the day all the irritating freshmen would wander around looking like lost puppies and asking for directions.
I knew I wasn't going to be able to avoid it no matter how hard I tried.