Let Me In [YOONMIN]

Twenty One

JIMIN'S POV

I looked at Yoongi and prayed so hard in the moment, I was praying he was going to wake up.
"Open your eyes..." I said and caressed his hair, it was still so smooth and silky.

Yoongi's face was moving, his eyes were moving, so I waited.
Yoongi slowly opened his eyes, but he instantly looked confused.

"Yoongi?"

"Jimin?! Is that you?!"

"What do you mean...? Yoongi? You...can't you see me?"

"No! No! What's going on?! I can't see anything! It's all black, Jimin! Help me!" He cried, I felt so fucking horrible.

The nurses and doctors came running in trying to settle him down, they injected a sedative into his IV and told me to wait outside.
After a little while the doctor came up to me, I rushed up to her again to see what happened.

"Is he blind? For ever?" I blurted out, not giving her a chance to speak.

"We don't know that Jimin. He can't see now, but his vision might return or he could stay blind. Most likely the latter since the damage was bad and almost killed him, but we won't know that for sure. We still have to do more tests to make sure. Now, he is going to require a lot of attention. I recommend you get him to a psychiatrist when he's healed because if he attempted suicide before, this could make him worse."

I didn't know what to even think, I was worried, I was worried Yoongi would get mad and not want my help and try to kill himself again.

"Thank you Doctor. Can I try and see him now? He needs me."

"Of course." she said and let me go into Yoongi's room. I approached him slowly, trying not to startle him.

"Yoongi?" I whispered and he opened his eyes, he had a blank expression as he couldn't see.

"Jimin?"

"Yoongi I'm so-"

"Don't even try to fucking apologize to me. You did this, you caused this. Because of you I can't fucking see. I loved you, I wanted to die because I didn't want to live without you, but I was stupid. I should've forgotten you and moved on like you did. You fucked someone else one day after you left me. I don't know why...why would I do that for someone that doesn't give a flying fuck about me. Why didn't you let me die huh? Now I have to live like this-"

"No! I wasn't going to let you fucking die! I'm sorry I did what I did Yoongi, I'm so fucking sorry, let me apologize. I was just too prideful all this time, but mostly scared."

"Scared of what?! Going to jail?! I told you I had given that shit up when I settled with you!"

"I know! I was scared! I was thinking of coming back to you in the beginning, but I did something and I knew you wouldn't forgive me. Ever since I left it hasn't been the same. I've been just as miserable as you. Then, when you sent me that letter, I came back, just not in time. I realized I had no reason to stay away from you anymore and that I just want to be with you. I realized that I love you more than I love my life because you make me genuinely happy. But...why are you blaming me for this? I wasn't the one who shot you, but there is still hope Yoongi, you might see again."

I was afraid of what he was about to say, he clenched his fists and thought about what he was going to say before speaking.

"You should've just let me die."

"Yeah? You blame me for that but you didn't think about us. You didn't think about the people that love you and you didn't think about how you would leave me here to blame myself for this anyway. You blame me now, but I already did when I found you unconscious. It is my fault so let me help you, let me be here for you now. Let's start over." I said and walked over to him and tried to grab his hand but he pulled it away.

"No, I don't want anymore trouble because of you. If you wanted to be with me you would've been on time or you wouldn't have ever left me."

"Yoongi..."

"And what did you do huh? What did you do that I can't forgive you for?"

"I...slept with Jungkook..."

I saw Yoongi tense up, he instantly got heartbroken once again, he hated me.

"Just fucking go Jimin. I never want to see you or hear from you again." he said. I ruined him but I had to try.

"Yoongi please, it was a mistake! I was mad and-"

"I said go! get out of here Jimin! Get the fuck out!" he yelled, so I did just that.

I knew he was just mad now, maybe he'd calm down later and rethink everything he told me. He wanted to die for me so it didn't make sense that he didn't want me anymore.

I ran out crying, but at least I knew he was alive and that he would be okay eventually. I decided to call Hoseok so he would go to him and make sure that he would be alright.

"Hobi? Where have you been?"

"Hey Jimin. I've been taking care of some things. How is Yoongi?"

"Um, he woke up and he's blind so I need-"

"Wait what?!"

"Yeah, I know. he's so fucking devastated Hobi, it's all my fault. He's really mad at me now and hates me so, please go to him and make sure he's okay and always update me."

"Sure Jimin. I'll see you around school then?"

"Yeah, just take care of my baby okay?" I said, my voice hoarse. I hung up and then went back to the dorm where Tae was.

I didn't even talk to him, I just laid on the bed and cried. Tae was used to this by now so he didn't bother me either.

"Taehyung?" I called, my voice muffled since my face was buried into the pillows.

"Yes Jimin?" he answered and came to me, "are you okay?"

I sat up and looked at him, he saw the sorrow in my eyes and then sat next to me. I told him everything and he just stayed there with me, trying to comfort me.

"I know it hurts, but he will forgive you. He's just mad now that he can't see. Once his vision comes back he will see that you saved him." Taehyung said and hugged me, "did you tell him about Jungkook?"

"Yeah, he hates me even more now and I just feel so useless. I can't help him, and now he doesn't want me around him."

"He will come around, he loves you. Now eat something and get some rest. You look horrible. Take a shower too." Tae said, so I went in the bathroom and took a long hot shower thinking about everything that happened.

I was just sad, heartbroken, miserable and whatever other negative emotion could be felt. I wish I never left Yoongi, none of this would've happened...