Let Me In [YOONMIN]

Eighteen

Jimin's POV

On my way back to Taehyung's room, someone caught my arm and pulled me against the wall.

"What the fuck!" I growled and pushed who ever the person was off me. It was Yoongi.

"Jimin..."

"I don't wanna fucking talk to you." I said and tried to walk away but he chased after me.

"Please! Listen to me...wait. Why is your hair all messy and sweaty?" He asked and raised an eyebrow, looking very concerned.

Dammit, he probably already knew I've been fucking someone else.

"It's none of your goddamn business. Leave me alone!" I shouted and tried to walk away again but Yoongi grabbed my shoulders and slammed me against the wall.

"No! Not until you tell me! This is how you look after I've fucked you. Tsk, not even that long apart and you go become a slut huh?"

That was it. I slapped him across the face but he didn't dare say or do anything. He would never hurt me that way, however, what he just told me hurt more.

"Fuck you! You're calling me a slut when you fucking do the shit that you do huh? Has it ever occurred to you that you're a fucking felon? Huh?!"

"Technically I'm not until I'm caught."

"You're full of shit! You're committing fucking crimes Yoongi! If I were you I'd be worrying about that instead if your ex boyfriend is fucking someone else." I told him, my eyes never leaving his but they weren't steady. I didn't wanna admit anything to him.

"So you are huh...I was gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and believe you were just working out but...there is a truth untold here...who are you fucking? Just who ever to get me off your mind?"

I didn't answer him, my jaw clenched and so did my fists. I felt guilty but I was also furious with how he was talking to me. I looked up at him, my eyes became watery and his expression changed. He still loved me.

"Jimin...I'm...I'm sorry okay? You're not a slut, you're anything but that. You're my baby. You didn't have to leave me for this. Please come back to me, I don't care. I'll give it up for you okay?" He pleaded, but after what he told me and after what I just did, I couldn't take him back.

"No. I said no. We are over. I'm not going down with you. You're on your own. Don't try and chase after me." I said one last time before walking off and making sure Yoongi wasn't following after me.

I hated being so stubborn and having this pride inside me. I loved him, I never stopped loving him but I couldn't face what he would inevitably face soon.

However, I asked myself again if I would testify against him if he ever went to court. Would I let him sink by himself? Would I not help him if he got into using drugs? I didn't know. I wouldn't want to just leave him without anyone. It wasn't like me, but I knew he wouldn't want me near him anyway because he would kill me if he found out I fucked Jungkook.

This sucked. Why Yoongi? Just why? We could've been together at that moment. I could've been in your arms and your chin could've been resting on the top of my head while you held me. You could've been kissing my forehead and I could be laying on your chest. But all this? For what reason..?

Once I got to Tae's room I just fell on my bed and cried. I was alone and just felt like crying all night. That's all I could do after all.

I turned over and looked up at the white ceiling. I just stared at it and got lost into my thoughts. Well thought. My only thought was Yoongi. I didn't even care that I fucked Jungkook. I thought that if I fucked him I'd be able to forget but I couldn't. Yoongi had my heart, forever.

Taehyung came back after a while. He didn't look as tidy as he did when he left so I assumed he was out there messing around with God knows who.

"Hey Tae." I greeted him, my voice hoarse from all the crying.

"Jimin? Have you been here on the bed this whole time?"

"Not exactly. But I did something so fucked up Tae."

"What?" He asked and went over to his fridge and opened up to find something.

"I fucked Jungkook." I blurted out.

There was a moment of silence before Taehyung slowly turned around, looking confused as hell.

"What?"

He closed the fridge and walked over to me, sitting on the bed across from me.

"He literally wanted me to fuck him. He said he wanted to try it out. I don't know Tae, it just happened."

Taehyung let out a chuckle and held his face in his palms, feeling shocked at the information he just received.

"Wow, that asshole can persuade anyone. Even you." He said and looked up at me.
"You shouldn't have fucked him. You broke up with Yoongi very recently, but how did it go? Did he...hurt you? He's usually always so dominate, from what he's told me."

"No." I chuckled, "You'd be so surprised on how submissive he was. He was...so different. I've never seen him give into anyone like that."

"Oh shit, I can see how you're smiling right now. Don't fall into the devil's path. Forget Jungkook. Yoongi is your man, Yoongi is the one that loves you."

I looked at Tae and pursed my lips then took a deep breath as I thought about it.

"I did tell him that it was a one time thing."
I got up and ran my fingers through my hair, blowing out air from my lungs, it felt heavy.
"I love him Tae. I don't want to be without him. But after finding out all this shit?"

"What shit?"

"He's a fucking drug dealer. He carries large amounts of heroine around the world. He could get caught. He could go to prison and I don't want to go down with him, but at the same time I want to help him get out of it, you know? I want to be there for him even if he got convicted. I don't think he does it anymore. Ever since we stared dating he hasn't gone anywhere. He said he wanted to stop for me, he still means so much to me."

I felt the urge to cry again, I missed him so much already. This sucked ass.

"Then go see him. Don't hide your feelings Jimin. He's made mistakes, he wants to be better, like you said, he hasn't done it for a while and maybe you're the reason why. Don't be like Jungkook, or me."

"You? You're nothing like him."

Taehyung shook his head and smirked, "I'm never stable with one person." He started then laid on his bed, "I'm always breaking girls hearts. I want to meet the right one and have what you have with Yoongi, but it's so hard."

"You will find her. I promise you that." I reassured him and sent him a soft smile.

"I just need some rest now and I'm sure you do too. Goodnight Jimin, and remember what I told
you, don't give up on him so easily." He said and turned around to face the wall. He didn't even care to change out of his clothes. Typical Taehyung.
"Goodnight Tae."

I turned my back and faced the wall, I just stared into it thinking about my decisions and what I'd do the next day. Would I go and talk to Yoongi and see if he's okay? Would I forgive him and try to find a resolution for this bullshit? How would I tell him about Jungkook?

Thinking about all this made me nervous and made me break into a cold sweat at night. I couldn't sleep, I kept tossing and turning, it was the worst night I've had in a long time...I needed him, but I needed time to think about it...