Two Of A Difference

Humanity

Vanessa's POV

I felt my heart pounding, it must have been beating over 300 times per minute. My emotions weren't helping with my situation.

I sat in my small box shaped room, my eyes glued on my adidas bag full of old diaries. I felt tears slide down my cheeks.

I was sick of it! I was sick of all of this! I was tired of feeling the way I do, tired of crying.

I cried over turning into a vampire, I cried about finding out I was adopted I cried over being stabbed with wood I cried over my 'fathers' death and I cried over my mysterious sister! All things I shouldn't be ashamed of crying over but I still somehow felt like a pile of shit!

I lay back on my bed hoping it would somehow help me feel any better.

Just then my door burst open. I bolted upright seeing Mark stand in my door frame.

"You're crying again!? For goodness sake Nessa! Learn to take a hit!" He lectured me.

"Get out" I argued aggressively, wiping my eyes dry.

He chuckled, "baby"

I glared up at him. He must have noticed the regret in my eyes, how angry and how upset I was.

"Ok Nessa I know that look, I've seen that look before! Don't you dare!" He ordered walking towards me.

"I said GET OUT!" I shouted at the top of my lungs.

He grabbed my wrists and pulled me to a standing position, my hair stuck to my tear ridden cheeks.

"Nessa I swear if you do this you are out of the family!" He threatened.

"I need it to end! It's too much!" I cried.

"How the hell do you think this will help!" He bellowed in my ear.

Tears were now streaming down my face, I had no other choice! I'm Vanessa Wilkinson and I want to feel no pain.

I could feel the switch in my mind, all I had to to was flick it!

Why was it so hard! Did I not have a good enough reason? I could feel Mark shaking me like crazy, shouting at me to follow his rules.

I stopped stood still, I looked straight into my brothers eyes, tears quavered in both of our eyes.

"Don't do this" he whispered.

"I'm sorry" I replied.

I heard a click.

I looked up again into Marks eyes. He was pathetic, tears rolled down his cheeks.

"It's only a switch you twat! Get over it" I laughed.

"I can't believe you Nessa! After all we've done for you in this household! And you just carelessly switch off your humanity!" He responded.

I laughed "Now look who's acting like a baby"

"Get out!" He shouted.

"Gladly" I replied, feeling no regret, feeling nothing at all!

Why didn't I do this from the start? I mean who needs humanity anyways?

-Sarah

(Hey guys!👋🏻 thnx for reading❤ sorry for not updating very often but good news both Maisie and I have a week off at the same time so we will write as much as possible)