Incomplete!

Where it started...

Sith Leonardo:

It felt bad .. very bad.
As bad as a day without the sun, as bad as a runner in a race that has no end, as bad as a book with a ripped last page, as bad as the evil wining in a fairy-tale,  or even as a life without my poker face!

It felt terrible leaving her behind,  it felt terrible not giving her as much as a why, it felt terrible leaving the guys without a goodbye .. but, nothing could match the tightening of my heart. Nothing could reach up to the suffocating pain in my throat, the pricking sensation in my eyes.

I thought I was strong enough to come back. I thought I let go of the past.
I thought that I finally smiled from my heart things could be alright.
I thought the blood filled, warped images won't flood my mind.
I thought I'd have my phobias gone once and for all.
I thought I could at least manage to brush away the pain and pull up ones of my fake smiles.. but .. turned out I was granted none of that!

"Sith?"

"Sith"

"Sith"

I heard the voice calling my name again and again.  It most certainly hit my ear drums, it definitely wasn't an illusion, but not a single muscle in my beaten body could react.
It was a swirling tempest in my mind!

Now I hear it.

I hear the echoing steps approaching me, her high heels kicking the floor of the airport hall.

Yeah, jump at me and take out what's left of my miserable life.

"Tania is alright,  let's go"
A hand tenderly touched mine, pulling me out of the abyss, i wanted to drown, yo block the noise out, i wanted to standstill and hear nothing but the sound of my breath, i wanted to be somewhere else, but; no where is home.

Where is home?

"Sith?" 
She called again and I didn't ask for more. I pulled myself together, nodding at her.

"Kay"
The word came out of my mouth soft & smooth,  nothing,  like how wrecked I was.

"Ricardo Kalahan accused Tania of conspiring with Leonardo. Now he wants to settle and not start his motion against your mother if you give back every penny in your accounts" Liam started talking right away with no much as a welcome back!

"I still think we should use the managing partner card, and the fact that your father made those transactions way long before the incidence,  so don't worry son"
Liam went on blabbering,  her thin mouth releasing a word after another the same way her son's does.
The blurred scenery was the same too.
The honey Lacoust trees paved the highway that was as packed as ever.
A background of honking, screams, non-ending chatter.

People are living their lives. None of them knows of me, mother, my deceases father.
The frowns on their faces competed on which is bigger, over menial issues.

None out their probably lost his father through a phone call. None of them had to see the human they're proud of covered in bruises, bullet holes that his features were almost unidentified, yet, ascend a stage to console people who probably didn't feel a bang for the loss.

And, they're frowning!

They have no right to frown!

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"I'm hiring a new attorney"
I said the words, straight,  direct , and calm.
When you cut, make it fast and clean!

"What?" Came Liam's bewildered reply.