unrequited ; t. brown + j. bradley

v. touch

i feel your touch
you like me very much
you have me in your clutch
you feel my touch

[ lorelei's pov ]

"simon is about to go out and get some takeout, do you want something?" josh asks pulling out his phone most likely to text simon.

"whatever you're getting is fine." i tell him not really knowing what i want, i never really do.

we sat very close together, (as in almost on top of him) on the edge of the couch on comfortable silence.

"so, do you go to university?" he asks as i look over at the man whom my legs are draped over.

"i used to go to UAL while i lived in london. but now i reside over in the stratford halo flats."

"i still feel like i know you from somewhere."

"same here, you look quite familiar."

"actually i used to know a lorelei back in secondary school......what did you say your last name was again?"

"atkinson."

he sits thinking for a few seconds before coming to a moment of realisation, written all over his face.

"i know you...it's joshua, joshua bradley?"

he looks towards me grabbing my shoulders as i look at him with wide eyes.

"josh?"

"yeah it's me, it's me."

his arms engulf me as i feel my eyes brimming with tears, feeling his own tears drop down onto my forehead.

"i've missed you so much joshua."

"i promise, i will never let you go again."

"does that mean tobi is that tobi?"

"yeah it is, he misses you too by the way."

"i swear i'm not stupid, i just didn't recognise him." i say mentally beating myself up for not recognising someone so important to me.

"well i didn't recognise you, so it's cool. i guess neither did he."

i laugh as i wipe the tears from my eyes.

"i will never let you go again." he says cradling my smaller figure close to his own.

"me neither."

"i will make up for all this lost time."

"well i'm not going anywhere. you're stuck with me now."

once again we sit in comfortable silence, comfortable elated silence.

sometimes i think what really would have happened if i never moved away.

if i actually had a choice in the matter of my inevitable future.

if i wouldn't be alone or develop insomnia.

if it would've been easier to make friends and not have the fear of losing them from a life changing event.

or if i could've prevented myself from moving, but i was only 15. what was i gonna do?

defy my grandmother and never live the same again?

i loved my grandmother, she was the only one i had. i was the only one she had, even if i had the choice i would've never.

"lorelei?" josh asks shaking me a little to snap me out of the little thinking daze i'm caught in.

"sorry i was just thinking."

"me too, me too."

"about what?"

"you know that we're joined again after years of me thinking i would never see you again, i don't wanna hurt you. it's like you're i chinaware teacup if i drop you you'd break into pieces."

"why would you drop me?"

"i......i don't know."