unrequited ; t. brown + j. bradley

i. chains

Stuck in chains thee may be
Only to wish to be free
Unfortunate is it not only for me
Trapped in love are we

[ lorelei's pov ]

"Tobi?"

"Yes?"

"Do you think we will be best friends forever?"

"Lots of things can happen but we promised each other to look after each other and I would never leave you by yourself."

Then I awoke from my not very delightful slumber.

"Stop doing this to yourself Lorelei."

I slowly got out of my bed, the bed in the flat where I live by myself. I've no friends here in England and some might think, you're young and pretty so where are your friends.

Well nobody bothers talking to me and I'm not exactly in introvert I'm just not good at making friends is all.

Which I mean sucks ass but I had friends once. I met them in primary school in grade 10.

A boy named Josh, he was quite tall with floppy black hair and no facial hair. He didn't actually think he was ever going to grow any.

I told him, "You're only 16, slow down mate."

Josh was awesome, not only awesome he saved me.

It was one summer night, Josh and I had gone out to the ice cream parlour because it was hot and he was hungry. We were walking across the street, he was walking in front of me as one so protective might do. When a big brown truck ran a red light and Josh with his ninja like reflexes pulled me out of the way.

I was so close to that truck the wind from it going so fast almost took me with it. The side view mirror hit my arm though as I fell to the ground out of his grasp. I'm pretty sure tears were running out of his eyes, quite small ones because I could tell he wasn't trying to be emotional.

My head hit the ground pretty hard and all I remember after that is him carrying me to his house, because my mother would be pissed if he took me home like this.

Josh is pretty great.....was pretty great.

Now Tobi, I went to school with Tobi as well. Like Josh and I, Tobi and I were friends. But we were best friends.

We did almost everything together, while I was sick with pneumonia over the course of 3 weeks during the summer he visited me almost everyday. When he got food poisoning from god knows what, he eats like everything you know. I went and visited him like everyday. We went to Thorpe park together...always. Always had lunch together. Always together....

He promised me he'd never leave.....and he didn't.

I did.

He was devastated, and we lost contact. We never saw each other again.

I cried for at least a week.

But back to the present, I continue to have these dreams about one of our last conversations.

Honestly it haunts me.

Because I did the one thing I told him I wouldn't do, which was leave him.

I loved him.

I still love him.

But I doubt he remembers me.

Why would he.

I'm just a girl named Lorelei, who fell in love with an absolute cutie during grade 10. A girl who almost got hit by a truck and died. A girl who once had friends. A girl with Mild Insomnia and Selective Mutism.

A girl who has been lonely all her life and will probably always be so.