unrequited ; t. brown + j. bradley

xiv. worry

i worry about you
about when you're feeling blue
about when you ask me who
i was when you loved me too

[ lorelei ]

my head aches as i run my pruned fingers over my soap soaked skin.

i've been in here longer than i meant to, but what is 5 minutes to 15 minutes?

although i should get to work.

i jump out of my thoughts at the sound of a knock on the bathroom door.

"come in!" i yell as i turn the water off, grabbing the dark towel that was draped over the side of the wall.

josh slowly opens the door, probably making sure he doesn't have to shield his eyes as he fully steps inside.

"look, lori...i wanted to talk about your- um insomnia problem."

i sucked in air sharply as i fidgeted a little, uneasy about the topic.

in my mind i was annoyed with him, i know he's just trying to help but i don't want to talk.

doesn't he see that?

"i don't have a problem...josh."

he sighed before stepping closer to me, forcing me to take a step back in a panic.

"listen to me, i know that you have a problem. i just want to help." he whispers, placing a bang on my arm that causes me to flinch away.

"you don't know me josh! i'm different now then i was back then." i yell at him as i yank my arm away from him.

"you'll always be that same beautiful, funny, amazing girl to me."

"i'm sorry but- you're wrong. i will never be that person again."