Lies, Sex, And Pills: The untold Story of Brè Howard

CALLAWAY Years: Orange Crush

Where do I begin? Hmm, my tenth grade was a difficult start, because one I had a horrible tragedy hit my daddy's side of the family plus it was a new school and I didn't know any one so I had to try to make new friends. My tenth grade year was how the reputation of me being a hoe started, and also where I met Charles who was my first boyfriend. We were together for atleast two months and I came to find he had a another girlfriend named sierra who he had been in love with and dating for a while.  But that was a bad breakup, and it didn't get any better. It was crazy because I remember sneaking him in my grandfather's house one time when my mom was on vacation, and my grandfather never found out. As the tenth grade year went on I was in JROTC, and that was my first love. I love being in the program because it was were I had learned a lot about myself. The rep about me being a hoe came when we were sitting in Mr. William's Social Studies class and the class started talking about sex because he wasn't in the room. Long story short I came out my mouth, and said " I love to give head. It's fun for me. I know how to swallow and everything."  Not thinking that I'm in a new school, and I didn't want my reputation to be bad, but the damage was already done. Then there was this boy who went to school with me in Georgia his name was Jayleen Jefferson, and he started telling people about what I used to do in Atlanta.  That just made it worse because I wasn't denying anything. I was actually being one hundred about the situation.  So much happened my tenth grade too much to say, but I will say that I met some amazing people in that year. I met this teacher who
changed my life for the good MRS. P.J. is what I'll call her in the book. She was an inspiration, and also was brutally honest but it all came from a very sweet place because she didn't want anything but the best for all of her seniors being that she was the senior sponsor.

Eleventh Grade

This was the year I met Kaylen, and also Kevin, Kendrick, Kevin, Tevin, and the worst one of all was Dominique S. It's crazy because people have asked me how can you remember most of the events that happen, but I'm like dude it's my life why wouldn't I. It's crazy because when Kaylen and I were dating things we're good. At first I didn't know about the cheating, and all that but we were friends first before a relationship came into question. I knew deep down he didn't want to be dating the school hoe. I knew he didn't want to be associated with me like that. So you're probably wondering how I ended up with his best friends first well that's a very funny story. Kevin and I started messing around first, now for those of you who ever knew Kevin, y'all know he had a blue colored Nissan Altima. Yep that's the car we had sex in all the time. I mean he would text me and by this time I was knowing exactly how to sneak out of my granddaddy house. After football games, we would meet up and go to our secret spot, and have sex. It was okay. It got the job done, and he didn't complain about the head game so I was good. Now one particular night, after the Murrah Vs. CALLAWAY game, he came like he normally did but this time he had Kendrick with him. That night was the night I experienced my first train. After that, do you think they kept quiet about it ? Hell no, that made my reputation even worse, but the deed was done. So after a while, basketball season started so this was a great time. Dominique had his eye on me, and trust me he wasn't that bad looking back then. So we exchanged numbers to get to know one another, and Dominique had his own car. So one day after school I met him after practice and we went to his house, and that's how it started. Then one night, it was actually right before my birthday he messaged me and said did I want to get out and I was like sure. Then he called me and said something about his cousin coming with because he was going to his house and I told him I didn't care. So as I sat in the backseat of Dominique's car. I remember "Power Trip" by J. Cole and Miguel playing. As we pulled up to the house, "wait in the car and I'll let you know when to come in" thats what Dominique said to his cousin. So as I walked in the room covered in blue paint something didn't seem right, but that didn't stop me from sitting on the bed. This particular night a basketball game was on I want to say duke was playing some team but I remember his cousin coming and sitting on the couch, and I started to perform oral sex on Dominique his cousin left or atleast that's what I thought, but what happened next would change my entire life forever. Once my back was turned I saw the door open back up, but Dominique pulled my face back down, and held my neck down. I felt someone pulling on my pants, and I pushed their hands away but they moved my hands. They started to pull my pants down, and I tried to push him from behind me, but he just kept moving my hands. He grabbed my hands placed them on my back, and then forced his way in from behind. I was crying, but neither one of them cared. You see they took turns, and ran train on me. Their was nothing I could do, and I was just waiting for it to be over while they laughed, and gave each other high fives. Once I got back home, I cried. I ran and told my grandad, and he had my older sister take me to the hospital. They did a rape kit, and found the condom they used still inside me. It was intimidating talking about the situation, and of course it got around the school. As the police was doing their investigation, they had to talk to students, and teachers. Of course he got off, and the charges didn't stick. It was the most talked about subject. I couldn't take the stares and the whispers. I was able to heal from the situation. Even though I had healed from it doesn't mean I will ever forget it.