troubled (a phanfic)

chapter nineteen

Phil's pov

I was moving through a world of darkness. My entire body was numb and I wasn't choosing where I was heading I was just drifting. It was a strange feeling but it wasn't unpleasant. I couldn't remember how I had got here. I looked around me trying to find a clue. It was all dark and peaceful. I closed my eyes. I didn't care where I was going anymore. I don't know how long I've been drifting...I've lost all sense of time. I don't think I care any more. There is no reason for me to want to leave. I guess I'm just glad to leave it all behind. I pause thinking for a moment...what exactly am I leaving behind though?

And then it comes to me.

The only thing that could ever make me want to go back to the hell on earth that is my life.

Dan.

Dan

Dan

Dan

Dan

Dan.

I felt myself being pulled away again. I don't fight it.

I don't want to.

I just want to see him again.

My anchor is the thought of him.

I know I have to wake up for him.

I open my eyes. Everything is white and blinding and everything hurts. I groan, wishing I had stayed with the darkness, until I see a pair of chocolate brown eyes above me. They are puffy and red as though they had been crying. But as soon as they lock onto mine they light up.

"Phil!" He cries "Phil Phil Phil Phil Phil!" He buries his face into my shoulder and throws his arms around me. I can feel him shaking as he sobs. "Shh baby" I murmur into his hair stroking his back soothingly. "It's okay now it's all okay, I'm here." His sobs are heartbreaking and he can't seem to stop. He coughs and chokes into my shoulder clinging on to me tightly. I try and ignore the dull pain this brings as he rubs against my healing burns. Finally he loosens his grip on me and his sobs slow down to hiccups and then to nothing at all. He crawls into the bed with me and curls up against me holding me tight and nestling his head into the crook of my neck. I stroke his fringe from his face and carefully whisper. "It's okay now Dan I'm here it's okay... Now tell me what's happened all the time I was...out."I say.

He looks up at me and takes a deep breath before starting.

"I thought I had lost you." He begins in a broken whisper. "I watched you pass out and I rang the ambulance. They carried you away on a stretcher...your face was all screwed up because you were in so much pain. I sat with you on the journey there and you kept crying in your sleep and you wouldn't wake up, you just kept crying and crying and I couldn't help you! When we got to the hospital they wheeled you away and I had to wait hours and hours before anyone would tell me anything!" Dan took a deep shuddering breath shaking his head at the memory before continuing. "They came out and told me I could go and see you. I walked in the room and saw you on the bed...you looked so tiny and innocent. You were in a hospital gown and you were so burnt everywhere that you were covered in bandages and creams and you had drips and oxygen masks. They drugged you up well," he laughed bitterly "because you didn't wake up for two months."

I gasped in shock.

"What!?" I cried.

"You went Into a coma because your body couldn't take the amount of damage those...animals inflicted on you." He spat. "I never left your side for a full week. I slept on the chair next to your bed holding your hand. I sang to you. I talked to you. I tried everything to wake you. And you didn't wake up."

He paused for a moment breathing in deeply to calm himself. "Your burns started healing and sometimes...sometimes I was glad you weren't awake. Your skin peeled and scabbed and blistered and shed all over the sheets. It was so hard to watch.Bit by bit you started healing up, but it left you with horrific scars on your stomach and shoulders, that are still healing and faded scars on your arms legs and ankles. Your neck and face is completely clear." He stopped to lift his head from the pillow and look at me. "Completely perfect as well." He murmured leaning forward and kissing my forehead making my cheeks go pink, before continuing his story. "I got Brandon arrested for assault and attempted murder," he smirked triumphantly. "And I got all his pathetic sheep, unpaid community service...all of them except pj." He smiled. "He's been amazing...he helped me out when I thought I was going to...give up. I must have driven him insane." He laughed sadly. "I visited you every single day hoping for a glimpse of your perfect eyes or your smile or even for you to just give my hand a squeeze just to let me know you were still in there.

That you were still fighting... I nearly lost hope so many times." He looked me straight in the eye and smoothed my hair back from my face. "You are my life." He said simply. "and I love you more than anything in the world."

He leans in and cups my face in his hands. He gazes into my eyes.

I take his whole face in. His full lips, his smooth skin his adorable dimples and his shining brown eyes. He is so perfect. He leans closer to me and presses his chapped pink lips against mine. I close my eyes and lean into the kiss, desperately clinging onto his waist to keep him with me. Ive missed his touch so badly. I rake my fingers through his fluffy fringe and stroke his cheek with my fingers. He pulls away eventually gasping for air. He pulls me close to him cradling me in his lap and wraps his arms around me. I lean my head against his chest and he stroked my hair soothingly.

"Phil?" He whispers.

"Yeah?" I reply.

"Promise you won't ever leave me again?" He asks his voice pained and broken. I look up at him and stare straight into his eyes.

"I promise." I whisper.

-an-Phew! That was a bit of a nightmare to write!! (how many times have I said that now hahah xD) I know it was probably a bit boring I just thought you would want to know what had happened! Also don't worry (you probably weren't) but this is not the end c: there will be more chapters I promise, that's just the end of *eugh* Brandon being part of the story c: I hope you did enjoy it or at least mildly like it and if you could vote it and comment on it what you want to happen next then that would make you amazing and you would be gifted with a beautiful invisible rainbow turtle! c:
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