troubled (a phanfic)

(I might write another chapter. this story...it needs some sorting out)

HEY THERE
HOLY MOTHER OF TOENAILS
(Ew)
FIFTY THOUSAND READS
FIFTY
50K
HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHOOOO
WHOOOO
*wipes away tear*
So I just wanted to say thank you so much you darling people I just love you all so much and I always try and reply to all your comments and there are LOADS (thankyousomuchily)
But yes
A few things have come to my attention as I was re reading this and replying to comments
The first being:
This phanfiction is quite literally the worst phanfiction I have EVER written.
It isn't paragraphed, the spelling and punctuation (or lack of ) is appalling and the general way that it's been written including the content is just downright BAD.
Now I'm not saying this so that people will be like 'wat no omg I luv dis shut up'
I'm saying this because it's TRUE.
Everything happens too fast, too much happens at once (no one falls in love that quickly I'm sorry) there are so many HUGE plot holes (they don't seem to have parents (?!) yet they still have a nice big house fully stocked with food and stuff)
No one ever actually found out what Phil was keeping from Dan!? (To be fair I drafted this as an extra chapter in my notes and then my iPod was wiped and I just wanted to die and I haven't yet re written it but I will maybe)
And just generally it needs so much work doing to it like wow...
It fucking sucks 😂😂😂
Secondly after that little rant ^^ I noticed in the comments that a few people were upset or triggered by some of my work and I cannot try and get this across enough...
DO
NOT
READ
IT
IF
IT
MIGHT
UPSET
YOU
I AM SO HAPPY TO REWRITE A NON TRIGGERING VERSION OF THE CHAPTER AND SEND IT TO YOU
LIKE I WILL LITERALLY DO THE ENTIRE STORY IF IT MEANS I DONT TRIGGER ANYONE
JUST MESSAGE ME OKAY
I WONT BE MAD OR ANYTHING SILLY LIKE THAT I PROMISE
PLEASE DONT LET MY AWFUL STORY TRIGGER YOU
PLEASE
PLEASE
OKAY?
PLEASE.

and finally
What is the point of this big ramble paragraph?
Well
I am looking for an editer or a 'beta' as they are known as in the world of phanfic (so maybe message me or comment and stuff if you would be interested? Please?)
and I'm kind of desperate and a bit worried that I'm gonna delete this story on a whim one day and you guys are all gonna hate me and it just occurred that holy shit 50 THOUSAND PEOPLE HAVE READ THIS SHIT I NEED TO SORT IT OUT?!?!?
so yeah
Please help me out
Just so I'm happy to keep this up because it's panicking me that so many people are reading something I hate so genuinely.
But yes
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 50K IT MEANS SO SO MUCH I LOVE YOU ALL AND YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING AND I WANT TO HUG AND KISS YOU ALL<33333333