Kissed by a Bullet

Chapter 45 ~ Left hook, Right punch, and roundhouse kick.

Song of Chapter: Jet Black Heart by 5 Seconds of Summer

Coming home from Terrie and Seeley's bakery always seem's to calm my nerves for the day. Terrie always manages to take the time out of her day to sit and talk to me. Knowing something's wrong but never asking what it is, but managing to shove anything new she's trying out for the menu down my throat and seeing if it's good or not.

But everything she makes or try's out is always good to me, Terrie has always been good at that. Baking and making people smile with her food.

I open the front door after walking home, I love a good walk to clear my mind and work off all the calories that I've gained because of a short visit at the bakery.

I struggle to get the keys out of the door, I've been the only one in my family to keep managing to lose to a door. A door that keeps eating my keys. After five minutes and me kicking the door I finally manage to get them out.

I glare at the stupid door as I shut it and make my way into the kitchen. I throw my book bag down and go straight into my chocolate making retinue.

When I go to grab my chocolate syrup however, I noticed something from the corner of my eye. I turn to the island and see to piles of college letters. I've been waiting on mine forever, Luke however has a college picked out and is playing basketball for them next year on a scholarship. He plans on staying in New York, which I think is wise, he can watch after mom.

I've sent a lot of applications into different states, just not this one. I didn't want to stick around, I still don't, but now I feel as even as I try, I'll break down and come back. Like the sickness I can't get rid of.

Looking at Luke's piles there are letters, probably wanting him to play for them, because Luke was extremely well versed in the game of basketball. I'm so proud of him for making it this far.

I turn to my pile there two letters staring at me, both later then all the rest, but both still extremely important to me. I pick them up and stare at the state that sent them.

California

Three thousands miles away.

I take a deep breathe and open the college, I applied to as the backup. David Geffen school of medicine. I blew out a breath and tore it open. Opening the first letter, I read Congratulation in the first sentence. I smile, okay, I made it into the back up school now for the school I've been wanting to get into. 

I hold the letter in my hands staring at it, praying that I get the word I want to read, instead of the sentence of 'I'm sorry to inform you' or something like that.

Taking another deep breathe, and open the envelope. I with one swift movement, I read the word that I was looking for. University of California San Francisco accepted me.

The school that I've been dreaming me away from here accepted me, so why am I not more excited?

I look over to the holder on the wall that held Luke  and I's college letters. I walk over to it and grab my two local colleges accepted letters. Walking back over to the island, I place the two along with other two in a row. I then back up and sit on kitchen counter and stare at my future.

Leave

Or stay

Chase my dreams

Or go back to the place that understands me and I understand it.

My hands started shaking slightly, I am scared, I am hurt, and I don't know if I'm going to go.

I get up and start pacing. I should leave, this was my plan last year, and last week. Now I'm torn, or am I running away going to unknown?