Rewind

Chapter 5

[September 29th]

You finally mustered up your courage to call me. I was surprised. I thought I wouldn't be hearing anything from you at all.

We talked over a cup of coffee, catching up on things.

We were nervous at first.

You finally explained why you did it.

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You two decided to meet at the park. He sits on the park's picnic table and gave you a hot cup of coffee.

"Th-thank you," you said, looking at your cup.

For minutes, both of you just looked around the park, not talking and enjoying the delicious coffee.

You waited for him to start talking since he was the one who called you. Why won't he talk...

He took a deep breath in, before looking at your cup. "So, how've you been?"

"Good... You?"

"Same..."

Awkward silence again.

"I-is the coffee good?" He stuttered, which was rare.

You wanted to laugh at that, but didn't. "Yeah. Black coffee is the best."

"It's disgusting! It's not sweet enough..."

The atmosphere was lighter. It was easier to breath and talk. Your nervousness was gone.

You talk about this and that, catching up on each other's lives, until the topic switched back to the coffee...

"Do you want another cup?" He asked you.

You nodded your head and he got up to buy a coffee at a fast food resto across the street.
He came back and handed you your beverage.

You took the cup and smelled the aroma. Huh? "This isn't dark coffee!"

He laughed and took the cup from your hands, before switching it with the one in his hand.

It hurt to see that smile of his. He had his gummy smile on. You missed it so much...

"I'm kidding," he said. "I won't give you any other coffee than the bitter one. How can I forget things like that..."

The last sentence was said by accident. He averted his gaze when he realized what he said.

The heavy atmosphere came back.

You opened your mouth first and brought up the subject. "Yoongi."

He looks up from his cup to look at you. It was the first time he heard you said his name. It was the first time his name came out of your mouth.

"Why did you do it?" You continued.

He looks down at his cup again. "I-..."

"You can be honest," you added.

"I'm sorry. I- it just happened... I didn't think or I didn't really knew what was going on," he said, stealing glances at you. He didn't know if he should continue or stop there.

You chuckled. "It's okay. I just want to know what happen so I can really let that aside, you know? I won't cry anymore."

He smiled weakly and continued. "Right... I was looking for the toilets then she just yanked me in the room. I wasn't even sure if she was the one yanking me, it was like there was someone else with her—"

"I don't want to rush you, but I need to go somewhere after this... Don't make excuses and get to the point," you said.

"Sorry. I guess my feelings for you faded?" He said.

"... Since when?"

"I don't know..."

"Why did you wanted to celebrate our anniversary then?" You asked, raising your voice a bit. You got frustrated.

He didn't answer.

"Nice to see you again, Yoongi. I gotta go," you said and left.

You didn't love me anymore? Why didn't you say it sooner... You think to yourself.

You started to walk faster when you were very far from the park. You told yourself that you wouldn't cry anymore, but it still hurt when the person you've spent 3 years with throws the 'I don't love you anymore' to your face.

You took a cab and told the driver to take you home. Your sister's home.

You cry silently in the car to not get the driver's attention.

When you arrived in front of her house, you paid the cab. You ran to the door while searching for the house key. You didn't find it. Where's the key?! You thought for a moment and remembered that you changed bags and the key was in the other one. What an unlucky day... I don't want to knock. My eyes are red. You stood there for a moment and eventually, someone opens the door. It was your sister.

"Hey! Thank God you're home! I left the key in my other bag," you said cheerfully, walking pass her.

"Y/N," she said firmly, which made you turn around and look at her. "Come here."

You went into your sister's arms and cried. Again.

"You did well, you can now turn the page like you told me..." She said, comforting you.

"Yoongi... H-he said th-that he... didn't love m-me..." You said between sobs and hiccups.

Your sister made you sit down on the stairs, her sitting beside you.

"We talked... It was great. He remembered that I like dark coffee," you started to say. "He smiled. It was like before... But it didn't last. I asked him the reason. His feelings faded..."

You were holding back tears. You didn't like to cry again for the same reason.

"Why? Why won't it go away?!" You said louder, tears flowing on your damp cheeks again. "... It hurts.. I still love him..."

You cried for so long that you had no more energy to do whatsoever. You fell asleep in your sister's arms.

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Not so interesting chapter and yeah, I'm sorry that Y/N cries a lot 😅