Rewind

Chapter 12

(Today)
[October 3rd]

We're doing fine. Everyone is.
Please continue to watch over us.
"Thanks for everything." I should be the one saying that.

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Y/N,

I don't know where to start. Since I met you, everyday was full of joy. Just being able to wake up and see you there beside me, I was happy.

I'm sorry that I had to lie and make you go through pain, I didn't think it through. Hoseok was right, I should've listen. Kira has nothing to do with what happened, it was me being selfish. I'm sorry I couldn't explained when I was there, it was difficult, that's why you're reading this now.

I hope you're happy. Either alone or with someone else, I want you to be happy and continue to live on.

While I'm writing this, I remembered everything we shared: memories, laughters.

Thank you for everything. For enduring me, for smiling with me, for laughing, for waking me up every morning, for cooking (I'm sorry I wasn't able to help and learn), for making me strong, for supporting me; and above all, for loving me.

For letting me see every sides of you, thank you.

I'm sure you're crying, because you're a cry baby, but that's also something I love about you, that caring and pure side of you. But don't cry... I know you're still crying even after reading that. And right now, you're thinking something like "Yoongi, why are you making jokes right now?" while smiling and crying. That's right, I know everything about you. 

Oh! And did you like the gift? I hope you like it, as well as him or her. You didn't expect it, right? I'm a genius like that. I plan everything so it will turn out like it should.

Y/N, be happy, okay? No matter what, keep on smiling and laughing, because you're not alone.

I love you and everything about you. Take care of yourself as well as OUR baby.

Yoongi

P.S. Smile!

P.S.2 Make our baby strong... like me

P.S.3 I love you.

You read the letter in low voice, smiling and crying. No matter how many times your read it, you would always cry, smile and sometimes laugh a little.

In this time of month, where leaves are starting to turn orange and red, you stood there in front of his grave, saying your prayers.

"I love you Yoongi, and I always will," you said, leaving a bouquet of flowers on the ground.

You kneel down, the letter in your right hand while the other one was holding a little boy's.

"Yoongi, the first time was when he was a little baby. Today, he is one year old and I can confirm that he is in fact strong, he learned how to walk very quickly."

"Daaaaa~ da?" Your son said with his cute baby voice, putting a flower in his mouth that was meant for Yoongi.

"That's right, say hi to your dad and don't eat that," you said. "And look, these little grey teddy bear gloves, it's a gift from him."

Your little boy looked at the gloves, clapped his hands; jumped up and down and smiled. Not any smile, a gummy smile, the same one as his dad's.

I'm truly happy, Yoongi. You thought, looking at his stone and your son.

"Let's go home, your grandparents must be waiting," you said, carrying your son in your arms and walking away.