Rewind

Chapter 9

[January 6th]

I found out that it was leukemia. No wonder you didn't want to tell me...

It's true I was sad, but I hid it. I didn't want to worry you.

I took an early leave of one week from my job to be with you, but also to look after you.

You didn't change, you were still the same from when we were together...

Together... will there be a next time?

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Three days went buy so quickly. You would go to the hospital as early as possible and go home as late as possible.

You would wake up early to cook his favorite meals so he could eat it everyday, because he was tired of the hospital's food. He wanted a taste of home — your home cooked meals.

You couldn't stay and sleep there, because you were just a 'friend'. The hospital wouldn't let anyone stay for the night except if you're a relative of the Min family, which you weren't...

"How's it going?" You asked, the moment you enter his room.

"Uh..."

You frowned and closed the door. You walk up to his bed and he was shirtless. A nurse was washing his back with a towel, which is normal, but the nurse was too close to him. It looked like he was fantasizing over his back. It didn't surprise you — his back was smooth and his shoulders were wide.

You went in front of him and see that he was uncomfortable. You chuckle at that. It was rare to see him act like that.

He was communicating with his eyes, telling you to get the man off of him, but you only laughed.

"I'll be back later this evening!" The nurse said cheerfully, winking at Yoongi.

When the man left, you suddenly burst out of laughter. Yoongi, on the contrary, wasn't pleased.

"Come on, Yoongi! Laugh a little," you said laughing even harder.

"You were supposed to help me! What would you do if he..." he started to cough, which made you go to his side.

You give him a glass of water and help him lay down.

"Thanks," he said with a smile. "Can you go for now? I know you just got here, but I think I'll rest for a bit..."

You left the room, leaving the meal you made for him on the table. When you do, you see a doctor and two nurses walking towards his room. You wanted to see if something was going on, but you were just a 'friend'.

Yoongi's POV
I was surprised to see her coming with Hoseok and Kira. The last thing I wanted was for her to find out what I was going through.

When I saw her, she was still the same: pretty as usual, except she looked tired. The news must've confused her.

When she first came, we 'talked' and we kind of 'reconcile'. I was happy to know that she has forgiven me, in a way...

I noticed that she would come so early and leave really late. I later found out that she took a one week break from her job to be with me. I wasn't pleased, I didn't want to be a bother to her, but she didn't want to listen.
...
This morning, a nurse came to wash me. It was the usual. However, because the usual nurse had an important emergency, another one replaced her.

He started to wash my back, but then I realized he stopped moving his hands. I was about to ask him if everything was alright when I felt his fingers poke and brush my back. He did that non stop and I don't know why.

"What a soft back," I heard him mumbled, which made me jump a bit.

I got uncomfortable all of a sudden and was trying to get away from him. That was when I heard someone opening the door, it was Y/N.

She came in front of me and only laughed. She didn't even helped me, she stood there, holding her laughter until the nurse was gone.

I wanted to be mad at her, but I couldn't. It has been forever since I saw her laugh wholeheartedly like that. I missed her since I've been here and I'm sure she did too, hopefully...

Unfortunately, I told her to go home even though she just arrived. I started to cough and it was burning my throat, but I didn't want to worry her.

While she helped me lay down, I wanted to cough again, but I was able to held it in. I searched for the small remote button near my bed to call for a doctor when Y/N was walking towards the door.

Two nurses and a doctor came in. One of the nurses gave me a glass of water to stop my uncontrollable coughs while the doctor checked my pulse and taking notes.

They took me to another room and examined me...

My condition got worse. It wasn't a surprise to me. I expect it. I felt it each day, I got weaker and I started to lose my hair.

But she doesn't know.

I wanted to spend my days that I had left with her smiling, not crying.

Tomorrow she will come back and I planned something special for her. I don't know if she will like it, but I hope she would accept and take it back.

Only four days left and she will leave me and go back to work...

Four days... will I still be here during those for days? If she is willing to smile like the first time, tomorrow, if I'm gone, I won't have any regrets, because my feelings would get through her...