Adopted by Andy Biersack

Chapter 17

Hazel's POV
2 days later

I looked at my phone and the time was, 8:23 am. I should be at school.

I went and found Andy and Juliet on the couch watching TV.
"Shouldn't I be At school?" I asked.
"We are letting you stay home, I realized when I went to get you up. You seemed a little tired." Juliet said.
"I don't want to say this but I didn't go to bed till 3:45 am."
"Why?" Andy asked.
"I can't say." I said. They looked at me and then told me to sit down.

"What were you doing still up that late. We were sleeping." Andy said concerned.
"I was talking to someone."
"Who?" Juliet asked.
"Jake."
"About what?"
"I don't want to talk about it, it's too much for me to handle." I said starting to freak out a bit.

Andy sat next to me and talk to me so I wouldn't freak out so bad but I couldn't get away from  how scared I was to tell. Sense I didn't talk so much I decided to say, "you haven't gotten mad at me for not telling right now."
"Your having a hard time telling right now." He said starting to rub my back a little bit.
"I normally almost always do."
"Just take a nap. And then we'll talk some more." He said.

I laid my head on his shoulder and started to sleep. How am I ever going to just be able to tell with out being scared? I questioned myself.

As soon as I fell asleep Andy pick me up and took me to my bed, he didn't seem to leave my room though.

About 10 minutes later I woke up and Andy was sitting in my desk chair.

"Where you in here the whole time?" I asked.
"Yes." He said.
"Why?"
"I'm concerned about you, I'm afraid something will happen. You won't tell why you were up so late." He said.
"I can't tell without freaking out."
"What will make you tell?" He asked.
"I don't know, it's just something I was never able to do."
"You should learn, it will make me happy and Juliet and everyone else. We don't want to force you. But we need to know what's wrong."

I grabbed my phone and called Jake to come over.

"Why did you call Jake." Andy asked.
"I'm not tell, he is."
"You should tell its your problem."
"He knows what it is, and I freak out." I said. Shaking a bit.
"I still want you to tell." He said.

I got out of bed and then walked to the living room, and Andy followed me. After a few minutes Jake came.

"Hazel, what did you want me to come over for." He asked.
Andy said, "She wants you to tell what she talked to you about last night."
"Um....you should probably tell yourself, I'm not going to have you to rely on Me to tell them. I can help you explain but I won't tell."
"I told her she should try to tell herself." Andy said.

We sat on the couch and Jake sat next to me.
I was thinking of what to say but still couldn't think.
"I... Um...no I can't do this. Please don't make me say this, please. Jake please tell." I said.
"You need to learn to tell yourself." He said.
"I-I can't." I said.
"Yes you can I know you can, you just don't want them to know the truth."
"But I also can't tell." I said getting up. Jake made me sit back down. "Jake I said I can't." I told him again.
"If you telling there will be nothing to worry about." He said.
I waited a moment to take a breath.
"I have told you this so many times. I CAN'T DO THIS. YOU WILL JUST NOT KNOW THAN." I yelled and went to my room. Andy followed but I shut the door and locked it before he got there.

"Please let me in." He said.
"No." I told him.
"Hazel, your getting me mad now please." He said.

(Trigger warning)

I didn't listen and I grabbed a blade from my drawer and made a few cuts. I made a few more than Andy came in.

Andy seen what I did and came towards mean.
I heard him say something under his breath. "What?!" I said.
"Nothing." he said.
"You mumbled something."
"Forget about it." He said.
"I won't, tell now. You said something."
"Nothing." He said sounding more mad.
"TELL!" I told him.
"NO!" He said and left. I heard someone else coming but didn't exactly know.

Juliet came in and shut the door. She didn't say anything. She went to my bath room and got a wet and dry towel and came back. She sat on the bed next to me and washed my arms.

"You need to say sorry to Andy and Jake. Andy is in the living room worried. And Jake is too." She said.
"Andy didn't say what he mumbled under his breath."
"Is that your problem to worry about."
"I'm afraid he said that towards me but is not letting me hear what he was saying because it would be mean to say to me."
"This it what he told me he mumbled, 'Seriously, not again.' That's what you are mad about."
"Why wouldn't he just tell me." I said.
"I don't know. Just go say sorry." She said and went back out of the room and picked up the towels.

I sat there for a minute then came out.

I sat on the floor and made sure my arm were covered. Hopefully Jake wouldn't know.

"Andy, I-I'm sorry I made you mad. And Jake I'm sorry about being mad at you for nothing also, I can just be really dumb sometimes."
"Your not dumb, you just get really nervous and we want you to overcome hiding what needs to be said. There is nothing you need to worry about now. I told them. I still wished you would have told them." Jake said.

"If you really want to hurt yourself that bad, you should tell. We don't want to have to deal with you not being here. We would want you alive. No matter how stubborn you can be you need to be here. We love you." Andy said.
I gave him a small smile and then it faded quickly.
"What's wrong?" Juliet asked.
"Did I ruin our relationship?" I asked shyly looking at Jake.
"No, I would never leave you like this. You need me. You need all of us." He said.

I got up and and sat by Jake. He didn't say anything the rest of the time. Neither did Andy or Juliet.

Juliet's POV

I always tend to wonder why she listens to what I say more that what Andy says. She seemed to start getting really tired again. She started to doze off And then fell asleep.

I don't think Jake is aware of what she did to her arm.

A few minutes of us talking she moved her arm a bit while sleeping and it rubbed Jake's arm. I could tell he felt it. He looked at me then back to Hazel.

"You weren't going to tell me about this?" He said.
"I didn't want to deal with it again, we wouldn't need to be in an argument with her. That's one of the things it causes her to do that." I said. I can't really explain this to him.
"What are we going to do about it." He said looking at her arm touching a few of them.
"I don't know." I said.

Jake picked up Hazel and carried her to her room and came back. He sat back down and Andy got up and went to the kitchen. He was there for like 5 minutes.

He came back with coffee and gave it to us.

"How often does Hazel listen to you." I asked Jake.
"Sometimes, but not always. Depends on her mood."
"Andy, how about you." I told him.
"Well, what happened earlier, and you needed to get her, not too well. Unless she's in a good mood than she's fine, until I ask a question and she doesn't want to answer, she's like that a lot."
"We need to fix this." I said. "She never argues with me. Which is good I don't want arguments, but we need to help her she doesn't listen to you." I said. I drank my coffee and then went to my room and read.