My Voice Within

I am Not Okay

I am not okay...

Every day, people sit back, waiting...

Waiting for me to say something, do something.

Everything that is supposed to be within my reach

Gone!

Ruined!

I couldn't do anything.

I just watch them drift apart.

There is so much pain.

I cry some more.

I have never been more alone.

I am nothing.

I was broken, you broke me but what's the point?

I love you still.

There is so much pain

I didn't even know how to breathe.

I want us to be brave.

I want us to handle this together

But it can't be. You just can't.

I pleaded and I know you heard me

But you choose to hurt me.

I love you

You loved me.

Loved not love.

Your coldness told me I was just a thing in your past.

I feel so hopeless, depressed, lonely, angry

But most of all, I am scared.

I can't escape it.

It sucks!

It consumed me.

It eats me away.

The constant frustration to take all the sadness away

Worsen the emptiness I felt.

I tried to do many things to feel okay

But just when I thought that I am,

Surprise! Emptiness kick in, pains overpower.

I am not okay and there is no way out.

I am not okay and there is no quick way to fix it.

I just have to learn to live with it.

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