Poetry of my Thoughts

My Thoughts...

I can't say I totally hate the world, but I do hate it.

I don't like the way it works, but I can't help but smile, thinking it's going to be okay.

There is always a better side to things.

I'm not sure about myself. I'm not sure if I see things in a good way or a bad way, it's just how I think.

When people who are close to me get upset with me, I just wonder why do we have emotions that hurt us? Then people who I don't know insult me, I think why are their emotions making them hurt me?

If people hate me that much, why can't they just say so I know that whatever is making them mad, I could just leave them alone.

I have thought of running away or killing myself, but those were for selfish reasons.

Stupid selfish reason's.

Cause what would it prove?

To prove people wrong?

To prove the world wrong?

No it's to prove yourself that you were wrong.

Also if people read this I just want you to know that this is just how I feel about things.

Ok, so I don't need you to get mad at me because I think this way.

THIS IS JUST HOW I THINK OF THE WORLD!

But it's not a bad thing right?

At least I can think.

At least I can feel something.

At least I exist in this WORLD!

Because your not going to have another one like me.

No one ever said that this world was going to be good, but they never said it was going to be bad.

I have been really emotional but in the end all I can do is just let it happen.

It's not like things are gonna end up good or bad.

It just ends up as it is!

But I did just right this to let anger out.

But can you get mad at me for just writing something instead of saying it?
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I wrote this a long time ago when my mom was getting frustrated with me because I was failing some classes.
I cut off most of the original because it wouldn't really make sense.
Also this is the first thing I wrote in My Thoughts. The one that started it all...lol