Soulful Noises

Decem

You were never supposed to mean this much to me,
and I was never meant to fall this hard.

Yes, I was credulous each time you told me I was worthwhile, but am I to blame?

How were we more than friends but less than a couple when you whispered to my soul words that a heart that loved not could never utter?

How am I at fault when we had tacitly agreed there would be no strings attached, but the way you caressed my body said otherwise?

You say it was nothing short of indulging your manhood,
but the caution tape around your heart is vividly sighted.

Deep down still, i'm confused about you. 

We keep on playing a mind game of your mixed signals and my second thoughts yet my head knows you're my cocaine.

I know you're worth the ride because merely trying to let you go feels like ripping my heart out.

I don't know why I'm so fearful of losing you when you aren't even mine.

I guess I keep on hoping you feel the same way.

I don't know if these words I assert define love.

I'm bewildered,
but baby, could you love me?