Over and Over // Luke hemmings

Chapter 13

I woke up, but from the familiar surroundings I was still at the party. I don't know how I passed out I wasn't even drinking but I knew someone was.

I turned to the side to see if Luke was there but I couldn't find him. I stood up and wandered round the house to find Calum intoxicated with alcohol.

I was awkward enough around people when they were sober never mind them being drunk.

"Julia can I kiss you. "

"Calum you're drunk." I walked away still trying to find Luke. I walked downstairs and saw him on the couch but with someone else.

Alice.

They were sitting very close to each other then it became clear what they were doing.

Calum then stumbled down the stairs and stood behind my back. "Julia..."

"Forget it." I said sternly.

I jogged down the stairs and Calum yelled after me. Luke must have heard him and he turned around.

"Julia,  I..."

"Save it."

I stormed out slamming the door behind me. Thankfully I went for the easier option of converse and not heels making it easier for me to run.

Calum's house wasn't too far away from my own making it easier to get home.

I got to the front door I opened it and ran straight up to my room. And went straight for a box under my bed.

"Come on Julia, you won't be needing these." I thought to myself. "You've been clean for 4 months."

I couldn't do it the temptation was to much. I opened the box of blades picking up one and examining it very closely.

"Come on don't do it." I thought.

My clean slate of four months completely ruined.

" Useless." making the first.

"No friends." making the second.

"Not your type my ass." half way through the third.

"JULIA WHAT ARE YOU DOING."

I sat there on the floor in tears while my wrist was dripping.

"I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't." I said through tear filled eyes.

He ran over to me and bent down so he was at eye level with me.

"Why Julia?"

"I saw you and Alice and I know we're not dating but you led me on and-"

"Julia. I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that."

"You're not the one who has to apologise."

"Look what I've done to you."

"It's my own choice."

He stood back up and took my right hand. "Where is the bathroom?"

I indicated with my hand not saying a word.

He took me into the bathroom and sat me up on the counter. He brought my wrist down to the tap so it could be cleaned. I winced slightly at the feeling of the water against my skin.

"Don't do it again." he said still taking care of my wrist.

"Luke you don't understand."

"Oh yeah?" he said pulling up his sleeve. "I've tried to do it and it didn't work, everything got too much."

"Luke, I'm sorry I didn't know."

"Not many people do,  you're the first."

I didn't know what to say I was speechless. The most popular boy in our school self harms and tried to commit. It's unbelievable the things that go unnoticed.

"Do you have any bandages?"

"Down there." I said pointing to the cupboard below me.

He took out a bandage and wrapped it around my wrist. He picked me up like a small child and carried me through to my room.

We lay down on my bed in each others arms. He broke the not so awkward silence.

"My nona used to tell me that if you hold on long enough all your worries will slip away..."

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(a/n: THIS WAS A SAD CHAPTER AND IF U FEEL LIKE CRYING LISTEN TO YOU FOUND ME BY THE FRAY.)