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This chapter is gonna leave y'all sh00k
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Ill be back tomorrow he said.

He lied.

I waited all week holding onto a bit of hope. No text. No calls. Nothing. I was worried. Don't call me clingy if I hadn't seen him all week. Of course I tried calling him why wouldn't I?

Jimin hasn't heard from Yoongi either and that's the scary part since they are always together. Jimin had told me about how they work at this studio a few hours away from our house and that's where we were at now.

Sitting on the steps, in the cold. Jimin had told me the exact time they get off which was ten minutes from now. We both were freezing since it was nearing December and the snow was starting to fall. We aren't stupid. We had on jackets but they weren't helping at all.

"I hope they're here." Jimin mumbles. I nod in agreement. I'm worried to death and I just hope that both of them are here. We've been out in the cold for such a long time now.

In surprise, we both turn our heads at the two voices talking so casually.

"Yoongi, do you think they have the stuff tonight?" That voice I hadn't heard in forever sounded like music but it also made me angry.

We both stood up hugging ourselves for some kind of warmth. Both males stopped in their tracks and were about to speak. "Jin-"

"A whole week. No calls." I mention just to make sure he knows what he did.

Namjoon shakes his head, walking closer. "Seokjin, I can't be at your side every day of your life." He was raising his voice and it was embarrassing because the other two were watching.

"I never said you had to but it would be nice to at least hear from you. All week while you were doing god knows what I sent you so many messages and voicemails saying I love you and I didn't get any back." I argue. Out the corner of my eye I see Jimin and Yoongi walk away to leave us alone.

"I love you. Is that what you wanted to hear?"

I push the younger lightly. "That's what I wanted but now I want you to actually mean it." We are starting to fight more often and I don't even know why. Its like we are drifting apart even more.

"Well you're gonna have to wait a while for that. You stress me out so much Jin. At first I felt love but now I don't even know what I feel anymore." I waited out in the cold for this man. The one person I really thought I loved. That's when it hit me.

He got tired of me.

As if on time tears started streaming down my face and this is the most painful its ever been. It felt like I was drowning in the acid that I call tears. All that came out my mouth was seven words that I dare not repeat.

"Then why are you still with me?"

And just like that it was over. His cab pulled up and he pushed past me. He got into the car along with Yoongi who was confused. Jimin came walking back to me and he could tell something was wrong.

"Jimin, I think we just broke up....." I didn't want to say those words. It hurt too much to say. It felt like I was in a dream and then reality hit me harder than a rock. That argument would've went on longer if it wasn't for the cab. I don't even know what went wrong. I think it started when Namjoon started getting on fights but I think he was doing more than that.

Namjoon and I were like two puzzle pieces that someone tried to force together. Then that someone grabbed the scissors and cut off a piece to make space for the other puzzle piece to fit but doing that doesn't complete the picture.

The ice was just getting thinner under us and it was melting faster than we thought it would.

Way faster.

(A month later)

It was way past my birthday and I didn't do anything for it. I just sat in my room in the dark by myself. I got birthday wishes that I didn't even bother to answer. It was almost January.

I blame most of this on myself.

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.....so

How was your day?

Lol srry not srry

I still love y'all though