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Me, Kim Seokjin, does not share. I don't care who you are but I find it wrong to share a person that you love. It's like sharing your last piece of food when you haven't eaten all day.

Speaking of eating I'm hella hungry right now.

But no way can I get food now. I'm stuck in an empty bathroom with Namjoon spilling some absolute bullshit. Why am I here exactly?

Well, as I was about to go on a run to clear my mind from yesterday's events Namjoon called me asking to talk. Basically, he sent me to a empty cafe with no one and a sassy employee who was working here.

He wanted to speak in the bathroom because he didn't want the employee to hear the conversation.

"Jin, I just want to see if I can gain feelings for you again." The taller male whines like a child.

I glared at him. "Why do you have to see. Why can't you just know?" I ask.

Namjoon shakes his head. "You are such a hypocrite because earlier in our relationship you told me that you would only date me to see if you would start to like me."

"And I did more than like you."

"Exactly! That's what I'm trying to do but you won't give me a chance." He had a point there. I did technically do the same thing to him.

"Namjoon, i know in the end you won't choose me. Just yesterday you walked away. So what the point?" My eyes took more interest in the floor than this conversation.

I was near the door meaning I could just walk out in leave. I don't want to share Namjoon with that girl. Even if it means he gains some feelings for me I know somehow he will always choose Hye. I'm just going to be a plan b if something goes wrong.

I looked up at Namjoon who was now the one to be looking down.

"Namjoonie." He looked surprised I used a nickname but still stubbornly kept his head down. "Joonie, look at me. Obey your hyung."

His head slowly rose but he would glance away. "You have to choose one. I don't feel like being the plan b. Don't be afraid to hurt my feelings. You've done it plenty times before. Who are you choosing?"

Would I even be better? All I ever did was make him stressed out whenever he did work. I annoyed him by going to his concert.

Would I even be better?

Namjoon kept quiet. I push him slightly. "I asked you a question Namjoon." I raised my voice a bit. I wouldn't be surprised if the employee was eavesdropping.

"I can't answer it Jin because I don't know!" He yelled which started me bit. Almost like all my confidence crawled back into a little hole. The sound of his voice yelling at me was more scary than my mom yelling.

My eyes wandered around the floor. "You never know. But I know one thing. I wouldn't be your first choice. I really don't feel like talking anymore." I say with an uneasy feeling in my stomach.

I turn and grabbed the door handle when I was forcefully turned around. "I'm only going to say this once so listen closely." Namjoon was just inches away from my face. "I'll break up with her if that's what you want."

I stomped my foot which looked childish but I'm older so it counts. "What I want is for you to choose me because I've been sitting on my ass for months waiting for you to come around."

"Okay and if I did choose you would you be happy?" He asked through gritted teeth.

I said something that even surprised him. "The real question is would you be happy?"

Namjoon starts running his fingers through my hair like his mood suddenly changed. "Let me say it before you even speak. I don't kno-" I was about to mock his words but he cut me off with a soft, passionate kiss.

His lips molded with mine and moved slowly. It took me some time to register everything that was going on. I'm supposed to be mad so why am I kissing him back. I feel like whenever he kisses me all the previous and horrible conversations disappear. I become vulnerable under his touch like a love sick fool.

He moves his hand on the back of my head, pulling at my hair causing me to groan lowly. This feels like yesterday's events all over again.

He pulls a ways and starts kissing around my face which seemed a bit cheesy. "Jin, I'll break up with her."

Again.

"Joonie, if you don't want to..."

"I will. And I will also try to gain any feelings back Jin."

So he's telling me these days he's been kissing me he felt nothing? Were they just for the heat of the moment?

"Okay."

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Sorry for any spelling mistakes

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