Social |Namjin|

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Namjoon had never responded to my last text even though he read and its been about two days already. My hope that he would like it plummeted.

It was morning now and the fever started to die down. I got a good yelling from Jimin for leaving the house. Jungkook though he was treating me like a child but Jimin was right, I should've stayed inside.

It was about 6 AM. I plan to have a conversation with Namjoon later today so I at least could speak with him as friends and not frenemies.

I get out of bed and looked into the mirror. My hair was all over the place while my eyes were red. Not from crying but from the fever. I was dressed in sweatpants and a t-shirt, I really wasn't in the mood to change clothing.

Yoongi told me how Namjoon liked sexy people back when I was still dating him. I wasn't worried then because I believed I was a very handsome person. I took one last look in the mirror.

You wouldn't describe me as sexy even if I had regular clothes on and fixed up my hair. I'm not seductive 24/7. I don't have expensive clothing.

Suddenly, I didn't feel handsome anymore.

That's probably why Namjoon got tired of me because I didn't fit his expectations. I could probably change myself just a little bit not a lot.

Why am I doing this over a guy who would probably never love me back? I'm a fool that's why.

I open one of the drawers and pulled out my wallet. I still had some leftover money when my friends got me presents for my birthday. I lay the wallet on the dresser that had the mirror attached to it.

I open another drawer, coughing slightly. A sneeze followed after.

I grab jeans and a pink sweater. I still had Namjoon's scarf which I decided to wear mostly because I needed something warm to wear around my neck. 

Some sneakers were on the ground that I wore. Pretty soon this won't be my style anymore.

Grabbing my wallet, I slide it in my pocket. I should've ate something but ill just do that when I'm at the mall.

I walk out my room and outside into the cold. I start walking towards a nearby train, not wanting to spend a lot of money on a cab.

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I look around the store for certain clothing. I already had some chokers in the basket because I remember Namjoon had gotten me one when. I also bought makeup but not a lot.

I got everything that would even remotely make me look better.

Am I making a mistake?

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Ughhh I'm so tired. I hope everyone ate today